usa having dst starting as of today.. time are to be adjusted one hr back.. tat means the time difference is 13hrs instead.. i miss home.. tears have been flowing.. heart have been hurting.. depression?? haas..
to think he actualli replied as bastard.. -_- he actualli read moi blog?? even got an email from him.. no comments.. its so not within moi expectation.. tot i was long forgotten.. e email seems to have words hidden within.. i dun wan to guess anymore.. assumptions made mi reali tired.. im so tired..
keep telling moiself to stop thinking of him.. but y do memories keep flashing??

weather turning cold.. freezing throughout the day.. health not good.. condition dun seem right.. i could feel the pain sometimes.. izzit becux i never eat or becux of complications?? doctor said to return for checkup after one month.. but i had to come.. mummy was worried.. pls dun let her know anything abt moi health..
stupid mexico.. its alrdy midnight.. pitch still so high.. wth.. I WAN TO SLEEP!!!!
haix.. dunno wad to sae le la.. not in the mood.. update again..
n ppl, im jux joking abt getting a bf.. IM NOT GETTING ONE ANYMORE..

sigh. cut moi hand while trying to open the can of potatoes ytd. its pain lor. lucky not a very deep cut. but when water flows thru, it reali hurts. now moi eyes hurts too. n its teary. dunno whether its becux of not enuff slp or am i crying?
i noe moi heart doesnt feel right. i keep scolding n scolding. but when i look thru the photo in moi fone. moi scoldings paused. emotions revealed. deep inside, the feelings still dere. no wonder mummy sae, if i could forget him so easily, i would have done so long ago. sigh.
tat time i waited for him to return. he came n left again. for wadeva reason. whoeva's fault. no point pushing blame to each other. everyone has his own faults.

i hate the feeling of being distant from ppl but i am indeed distant from moi class ppl.. y, y is tat so? becux i live further from em?? becux of tat blackie?? wadeva the reason, i jux hate tat feeling. i miss home.. but i dun wan to go back.. sg is a miserable place for mi.. though i had a fair share of happy times there too.. i noe dere r ppl who miss mi.. who yearns to see mi immediately.. but haiz.. wb ask izzit becux of him.. i guess partly bah.. i wont see him anyway.. who the heck is he?!! cant believe i actualli bought souvenirs for his family thinking the way he treated mi.. haiz.. i haf to meet his mum when i return.. i nid to return her her blazer.. alright, at least his parents werent tat sacarstic like him.. enuff of him.. he's slipping off moi mind anyway.. tats a good thing.. oh!! n he stil owe me SGD170!!! bastard!! sae willl return mi before i come here de.. until now stil dun wan return.. hell lor.. got money to patuo no money to return mi.. shit him!!!

oh, i havent found moi angmoh bf leh.. nobody wans.. lolx.. pls dun be shocked when i sae im single.. i dunno y ppl owaes haf this look on their face when i sae i dun haf a date.. very surprising meh??

ytd went florida mall by public bus leh.. first time taking public bus lor!! so many things to see sia.. target alot place to go liao lor.. whahahaha.. finalli get to see part of orlando.. not all yet leh.. one day i wan to go downtown orlando.. think dere got asian market.. i wan to eat tau huey!!!

if u dun wan to wash, dun cook!!
tat yucky mexican keep using up all the cutleries leaving onli one spoon, one bowl and one cup for mi n wl to use!! wad the heck!! den eat liao oso dun wipe the table. clothes wash liao leave it in the laundry. i think her clothes rot in the basement more than a week le lor. wth. go n die bah!! cooking cooking again!! mess up the whole kitchen dun even bother to clean up!! oh n wl told mi tat whitie bring guy for overnight again!!! she promised us not to do it again!! she PROMISED!!! shit u ppl!! do it one more time im not going to let u off!! i will go report u and haf u transfer out of 405!!! dun u land mi into trouble!!
oh n tat stupid cast portal keeps saying i never clock in clock out.. dun show mi moi schedule.. n even give mi demerit points!! wth!! when i check, it actualli recorded the time i clock in n out. omgomgomg!!!!

weather turning cold here.. heard earthquake just struck hawaii few days ago.. 6.2 or 6.5 dun remember.. mummy been sick for the past 2wks.. oh mummy, pls take care.. u still wan to go china? u better recover first.. if not im not going to let u go. oh buddha, pls bless mummy. didi having o-levels soon.. oh buddha, pls bless didi too. let him get good grades so tat he can apply for the course he wan. bless daddy too for his work smooth sailing. bless everybody. amituofuo.

oh man!! i need to submit report to bud miles!! gosh.. write wad??? every wk oso need to submit 2reports!! n mind u, these reports are EXPENSIVE ok? online assignments every wk till december for USD$2500!! its damn ex lah.. feel kinda cheated.. n teacher is crazy!! imagine work 5days, 2classes on one day which includes projects n exams. n 2online reports to submit every monday which requires us to attend additional class so we can write abt it. think we robots ar?? dun nid to slp de meh? one wk 7days. one day onli 24hrs. where got so much time?!!!

am i being too good?
y am i owaes the one being sandwiched? being bullied?
that blackie makes everyone thinks she's so pathetic
makes everyone thinks im the one ignoring her
i became the bad guy
the battle btw class 14 and 12
i become the ham in the two pieces of bread
im suffocating
but dere's nobody i can tok to
one day
i might just explode
n burst like a balloon
there's a limit to everything
dun test moi limit