finali scheduled to work morning on sat shift
realised it seems to be the firx time i come home after work by moiself, since i started work
feels like the past when i was still a schoolgal
been pretty long since i last wear uniform to school, like 4yrs ago?
went to packet moi fav laksa
din taste as good as last time
abit disappointed
but there's a new chicken rice stall!
yippee!! dun ask mi why, im jux tat excited can
seems ages since im home
had a great nite ytd
gerger was squeezing in btw mi n dear
felt so much like a happy family
blissed~
simply love those simple moments
if onli, when daddy mummy noes abt it n approve
there would be nothing else i can complain
@ work~
it reali makes moi heart boils for the way im treated
even though im new, tats' not the way to treat new staff
cux the ultimate goal is to close sales
sumtimes i jux cudnt understand wad theresa's mind is thinking
theresa = moi cousin's assistant (she dunno moi r/s wid her boss)
she's in-charge of taiwan group tours
alright, so there was a customer at the counter wanted to noe the rate for a particular hotel in TPE. as i cudnt find the rates from the free & easy department, i tried asking the F/E in-charge since others are busy. she not onli was unfriendly, she shoot mi back as if i offended her. nvm. so, i went to look for theresa (the main lead of the day). she, again din wan to entertain mi at all and referred mi back to moi immediate supervisor, karen. i got hold of karen, but she had to ask theresa too. damn that idiotic bitch. cant u jux tell mi the rates? y mux u onli tell karen so that she can pass on the msg to mi? #%^Y^%$#
i reali couldnt stand the way she's treating mi. so wad u been working in the company more than i do? so wad u noe more than i do? i wan to complain!! but who can i complain to? cant possibly sit down in the office n complain to moi cousin, can i? though she's moi cousin, there r some things that i have to depend on moiself. but, she's theresa's boss, isnt she? THERESA, U BETTER WATCH OUT! whether or not i can stay on, doesnt reali matters to mi. i can owaes find another job outside wid a higher salary. i jux cant stand how she bullies the newbies. !#$%^U&^%$#$
as the tot of resigning came across moi mind again, mr yap lao bei bei appear. he's moi customer. a very understanding n nice person. he makes mi wan to stay till at least after he come back from the tour he had signed up for. n that would be next month. so for the time being, i muz ENDURE!!!
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Friday, April 13, 2007
tally up moi sales today. till today, i alrdy hit 30 leh.. heh heh, 4more to hit moi sales quota for the month!! yesh!! jia you jia you!!
accompanied dear to work today.. haha.. he so fortunate sia.. even the condo security oso sae, work oso got gf accompany.. aiseh, mai siao siao leh.. LOL~
went training at nite.. wlcs gals team lion dance training hor.. dun underestimate mi k.. though i owaes play play lidat, when im in the mood to learn, i can do it de hor! today can consider is moi firx training lor, but buey pia leh.. at least i can catch the ball.. lalala~ lao wang mai gua zhi mai zhi kua.. heeheehaha!!
but~~ daddy mummy ard canot too close wid dear dear.. =(
dun bother so much bah.. moi "visa" to bangladesh will be approved one day de!! gambateh!!
accompanied dear to work today.. haha.. he so fortunate sia.. even the condo security oso sae, work oso got gf accompany.. aiseh, mai siao siao leh.. LOL~
went training at nite.. wlcs gals team lion dance training hor.. dun underestimate mi k.. though i owaes play play lidat, when im in the mood to learn, i can do it de hor! today can consider is moi firx training lor, but buey pia leh.. at least i can catch the ball.. lalala~ lao wang mai gua zhi mai zhi kua.. heeheehaha!!
but~~ daddy mummy ard canot too close wid dear dear.. =(
dun bother so much bah.. moi "visa" to bangladesh will be approved one day de!! gambateh!!
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
wonder whether been too long since i last log in, gotta try so many different user names n password before i got it right. *shake head*
been rather busy recently. oh well, i onli reach home not earlier than 10.30pm everyday. n 10.30pm is the earliest. in fact, not moi usual timing. had an agreement wid dear to be good gal. so shall be home as early as i can for the next few days, jux in case i get mad wid those naggings n decided to pack moi bag n leave.
work been pretty smooth lately. managed to open bookings almost everyday. hoping to open at least 3per day, that would do just fine to hit moi sales quota. got 2lectures for the previous week that make mi almost cried but i was strong. or, thick-skinned? wadever, i headed strong to work as i start a new month, a new week, a new day. i din have had any orientation since i joined, so pls understand moi mistakes. im willing to learn if u r willing to teach.
collected pay cheque today. got onli like half of wad i should actuali get. 500++ onli, after cpf. haas. how to return debt wid onli 500++?? nvm bah, first month. anyway, i din worked for the whole of march, onli started on the 2nd week. be patient. in other words, gotta be more thrifty for this month onwards. lotsa things in mind to buy. haa.
alright, gtg. no idea wad im typing anyway. update again.
adios~
been rather busy recently. oh well, i onli reach home not earlier than 10.30pm everyday. n 10.30pm is the earliest. in fact, not moi usual timing. had an agreement wid dear to be good gal. so shall be home as early as i can for the next few days, jux in case i get mad wid those naggings n decided to pack moi bag n leave.
work been pretty smooth lately. managed to open bookings almost everyday. hoping to open at least 3per day, that would do just fine to hit moi sales quota. got 2lectures for the previous week that make mi almost cried but i was strong. or, thick-skinned? wadever, i headed strong to work as i start a new month, a new week, a new day. i din have had any orientation since i joined, so pls understand moi mistakes. im willing to learn if u r willing to teach.
collected pay cheque today. got onli like half of wad i should actuali get. 500++ onli, after cpf. haas. how to return debt wid onli 500++?? nvm bah, first month. anyway, i din worked for the whole of march, onli started on the 2nd week. be patient. in other words, gotta be more thrifty for this month onwards. lotsa things in mind to buy. haa.
alright, gtg. no idea wad im typing anyway. update again.
adios~
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
things aint as smooth as it seems to be.
been quarrelling for the past few days for every single thing, be it misunderstanding or wadsoever, its owaes solve at the end of the day before we kiss goodbye. not today. im stil thinking whether to stay or leave moi current job. i dunno y, but i jux dun feel right at most times. loneliness, maybe. everybody has their khakis. im new. so not for mi. but becux im new, a senior mux be with mi at all times. as a result, moi "shifu" has to separate from her khakis to watch over mi. i felt bad. in fact, sometimes i felt so unwanted. extra, to be exact. colleagues are good to mi, willing to help mi whenever needed. they are friendly. but i jux cant help feeling tat way. dear dear keep telling mi not to force moiself, if i dun like it, jux quit n find another one. that's all he've been telling mi. i dun nid him to sae anything. jux need him to stay with mi. give mi a hug, comfort mi. let mi noe everything's gonna be alright.
unfortunately, he's upset that i confide to ck, a friend i nv see before -- a virtual friend. he's upset that i rather tell ck than tell him everything. sigh. he dun understand. he dun understand that i dun wan him to be frustrated over moi stuff. now, he saes i dun haf to tell him anything. wad else can i sae?
raining outside. wad a sudden rain. jux like moi heart. shattered rain.
been quarrelling for the past few days for every single thing, be it misunderstanding or wadsoever, its owaes solve at the end of the day before we kiss goodbye. not today. im stil thinking whether to stay or leave moi current job. i dunno y, but i jux dun feel right at most times. loneliness, maybe. everybody has their khakis. im new. so not for mi. but becux im new, a senior mux be with mi at all times. as a result, moi "shifu" has to separate from her khakis to watch over mi. i felt bad. in fact, sometimes i felt so unwanted. extra, to be exact. colleagues are good to mi, willing to help mi whenever needed. they are friendly. but i jux cant help feeling tat way. dear dear keep telling mi not to force moiself, if i dun like it, jux quit n find another one. that's all he've been telling mi. i dun nid him to sae anything. jux need him to stay with mi. give mi a hug, comfort mi. let mi noe everything's gonna be alright.
unfortunately, he's upset that i confide to ck, a friend i nv see before -- a virtual friend. he's upset that i rather tell ck than tell him everything. sigh. he dun understand. he dun understand that i dun wan him to be frustrated over moi stuff. now, he saes i dun haf to tell him anything. wad else can i sae?
raining outside. wad a sudden rain. jux like moi heart. shattered rain.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
supposed to be sleeping alrdy, gotta wake up early tmr. haix.
firx day work wasnt good at all. not a bit. was told to report work at 8.50am, i was early. had brief orientation abt the key players in the company. REALLY BRIEF. dun ask mi who is who, i dun remember at all. anyway, after tat, HR went on to intro mi n another guy to the staff. den i was left to karen, moi officer in charge. she's the tour officer. sumtink lidat. alright, so i was assigned to uncle billy. he was supposed to guide mi along. everybody saes he's the most stable, best person to learn from. n he dun teach jux anybody. so, i tot i was lucky to be under good guidance. but, oh well, he dun seems tat willing to teach mi anything at all. he din show mi the very basic -- answering phone enquiries. alright, he did show mi some stuff. but mostly becux i asked den he answer. yeah, Q&A session. den it was lunch time. went wid xinyi n edwin. i dunno them. in fact, i noe nobody. onli moi jiejie n to moi surprise, moi jiefu oso in hongthai. haas. but dey work backstage. im at front counter. sumore, our family ties is to be kept confidential to minimise office politics. after lunch, went back to office stuck wid uncle billy again. he can talk until i nearly fall asleep lor. sigh. went off to ladies to wash up. cannot sleep!!
till 3pm, moi turn to be hall manager, oso time for uncle billy to knock off cux he gotta tour lead at night. the duty of a hall manager is merely to greet any walk-in customer n bring them to the relevant counter. supposed to be 3-4 onli. but, when i get casey to take over, (it was scheduled), she had to do filing. so, i was asked to help take over her till she's done. n tat made mi walk up n down the office for another hour. moi ankle was so hurt tat moi tears nearly dropped. jux went sinseh the day before. n its a lil' swollen which is kinda unusual for mi. cux even if i sprain moi ankle, it wont swell.
i was so bored, felt so out of place. im inexperienced tats y im here to learn. yet, i was left alone wid no guidance. luckily, at the last hour, weisian was assigned to guide mi along. she was so much better. at least, she showed mi stuff wid sequence. not like uncle billy, mess. so overall, i did learn sumtink today. though, it was reali minimum for 8hours.
i was thinking, am i reali into this job? am i reali going to make this moi career? moi dream is to travel ard the world, but is bringing tour any part in moi dream? i can easily find another 5day job outside, save the money n travel. this job is taking away moi freedom, totally. taking away moi life. on public holidays, im not allowed to take leave. not on festives too. 7days a week, i'll be scheduled 5 1/2days. but moi off day is not fixed. most prob haf to work on sundays. sundays, when dear dear had off. were talking abt going zoo, going sentosa over dinner jux now, dey can jolly well fix which sunday n go ahead. but not mi. haix.
im feeling reali stressed out. haf to hit sales quota everyday. i dunno the quota, but sales is a must for every working day. i hate sales. lest to sae, hit quota. the last thing i ever wan to do is to hit sales quota. I HATE IT!!!
should i stay on? or should i, like wad ppl are telling mi, see how the next few days go den decide? wad should i do??? y am i stuck in this kind of situation again? decisions, decisions, decisions!! forever making mi to make decisions!! decisions tat i have to think thru carefully or regret for life. why mi again?!!
firx day work wasnt good at all. not a bit. was told to report work at 8.50am, i was early. had brief orientation abt the key players in the company. REALLY BRIEF. dun ask mi who is who, i dun remember at all. anyway, after tat, HR went on to intro mi n another guy to the staff. den i was left to karen, moi officer in charge. she's the tour officer. sumtink lidat. alright, so i was assigned to uncle billy. he was supposed to guide mi along. everybody saes he's the most stable, best person to learn from. n he dun teach jux anybody. so, i tot i was lucky to be under good guidance. but, oh well, he dun seems tat willing to teach mi anything at all. he din show mi the very basic -- answering phone enquiries. alright, he did show mi some stuff. but mostly becux i asked den he answer. yeah, Q&A session. den it was lunch time. went wid xinyi n edwin. i dunno them. in fact, i noe nobody. onli moi jiejie n to moi surprise, moi jiefu oso in hongthai. haas. but dey work backstage. im at front counter. sumore, our family ties is to be kept confidential to minimise office politics. after lunch, went back to office stuck wid uncle billy again. he can talk until i nearly fall asleep lor. sigh. went off to ladies to wash up. cannot sleep!!
till 3pm, moi turn to be hall manager, oso time for uncle billy to knock off cux he gotta tour lead at night. the duty of a hall manager is merely to greet any walk-in customer n bring them to the relevant counter. supposed to be 3-4 onli. but, when i get casey to take over, (it was scheduled), she had to do filing. so, i was asked to help take over her till she's done. n tat made mi walk up n down the office for another hour. moi ankle was so hurt tat moi tears nearly dropped. jux went sinseh the day before. n its a lil' swollen which is kinda unusual for mi. cux even if i sprain moi ankle, it wont swell.
i was so bored, felt so out of place. im inexperienced tats y im here to learn. yet, i was left alone wid no guidance. luckily, at the last hour, weisian was assigned to guide mi along. she was so much better. at least, she showed mi stuff wid sequence. not like uncle billy, mess. so overall, i did learn sumtink today. though, it was reali minimum for 8hours.
i was thinking, am i reali into this job? am i reali going to make this moi career? moi dream is to travel ard the world, but is bringing tour any part in moi dream? i can easily find another 5day job outside, save the money n travel. this job is taking away moi freedom, totally. taking away moi life. on public holidays, im not allowed to take leave. not on festives too. 7days a week, i'll be scheduled 5 1/2days. but moi off day is not fixed. most prob haf to work on sundays. sundays, when dear dear had off. were talking abt going zoo, going sentosa over dinner jux now, dey can jolly well fix which sunday n go ahead. but not mi. haix.
im feeling reali stressed out. haf to hit sales quota everyday. i dunno the quota, but sales is a must for every working day. i hate sales. lest to sae, hit quota. the last thing i ever wan to do is to hit sales quota. I HATE IT!!!
should i stay on? or should i, like wad ppl are telling mi, see how the next few days go den decide? wad should i do??? y am i stuck in this kind of situation again? decisions, decisions, decisions!! forever making mi to make decisions!! decisions tat i have to think thru carefully or regret for life. why mi again?!!
Sunday, March 11, 2007
went steamboat again ytd. yes, A-G-A-I-N. lolx~
its like the third time within this week. haas. even moi daddy suspect liao. mummy told mi daddy tot i bluff him. humph!! nvm, dun care him. i happy can liao. but i reali did go steam the boat can. last fri went wid shifu dey all, wed is shushu's bdae. ytd got 9 of us @ bugis.
talking abt ytd.. very funny day la. alright, as usual waited at shop for hour plus.. *shake head* forever wait n wait n wait.. owaes wait until i super sians de lor.. but ytd got news leh.. so hai hao. ah ong go book hotel room!!! "???" i oso not very clear wad happened.. but pris is totally very not happy lor.. den keep making announcement.. heard is 4big guys in a room, stil got extend room. aiyo, 4big guys in a room can do wad? unless... =x pris oso very funny la.. at steamboat dere when she heard xl dunno wan to ask ong to go cherrythai anot, her reaction, wha, 180^ change lor.. den she called ong.. dunno dey all la.. so complicated..
not like mi.. ytd so xinfu lor.. whahaha!! i was peeling the prawns.. den dear dear help mi scoop moi fav dang hun into moi bowl.. stil got two prawns leh.. den stil got soup leh.. he ask mi to eat firx.. but stil got alot to peel ma.. so i said, "u feed mi la".. who noes? he serious leh.. put the dang hun onto the spoon n feed mi!!!! in front of so many ppl la.. OMGOSH!!! SO SWEET CAN!! den dey very bad la.. tease moi dear dear.. make him feed them oso.. haha..
but after steamboat got prob liao lor.. tat 957.. erm erm.. dunno y, keep bio moi dear dear.. i sompa, i nv angry.. instead, mi n minmin keep laughing nonstop la.. dey play billard use number balls.. den dear dear pass mi his cards.. last card le, tat 957 take from mi.. at first i tot she wan to put on the table leh.. but she held on to it!! i was like "???"
got once, dear dear was trying to memorise which number to hit, den the 957 go so close to him to see the cards.. den need to collect money from the rest she go collect le den pass to mi.. aiyo, u cant imagine how mi n minmin was laughing like hell la.. the 957 is like our entertainment last night lor.. oops!! heehee..
i decided le.. i wan to hao hao love moi dear dear, canot be unfair to him cux he's reali very very good to mi.. he make mi feel so bliss can..
its been very long dun haf this kind of feeling le lor.. so i mux cherish!! minmin told mi he said never had anybody gave him this kind of feeling.. ^_^
bu guan san qi er shi yi, jue ding hao hao ai ni~
its like the third time within this week. haas. even moi daddy suspect liao. mummy told mi daddy tot i bluff him. humph!! nvm, dun care him. i happy can liao. but i reali did go steam the boat can. last fri went wid shifu dey all, wed is shushu's bdae. ytd got 9 of us @ bugis.
talking abt ytd.. very funny day la. alright, as usual waited at shop for hour plus.. *shake head* forever wait n wait n wait.. owaes wait until i super sians de lor.. but ytd got news leh.. so hai hao. ah ong go book hotel room!!! "???" i oso not very clear wad happened.. but pris is totally very not happy lor.. den keep making announcement.. heard is 4big guys in a room, stil got extend room. aiyo, 4big guys in a room can do wad? unless... =x pris oso very funny la.. at steamboat dere when she heard xl dunno wan to ask ong to go cherrythai anot, her reaction, wha, 180^ change lor.. den she called ong.. dunno dey all la.. so complicated..
not like mi.. ytd so xinfu lor.. whahaha!! i was peeling the prawns.. den dear dear help mi scoop moi fav dang hun into moi bowl.. stil got two prawns leh.. den stil got soup leh.. he ask mi to eat firx.. but stil got alot to peel ma.. so i said, "u feed mi la".. who noes? he serious leh.. put the dang hun onto the spoon n feed mi!!!! in front of so many ppl la.. OMGOSH!!! SO SWEET CAN!! den dey very bad la.. tease moi dear dear.. make him feed them oso.. haha..
but after steamboat got prob liao lor.. tat 957.. erm erm.. dunno y, keep bio moi dear dear.. i sompa, i nv angry.. instead, mi n minmin keep laughing nonstop la.. dey play billard use number balls.. den dear dear pass mi his cards.. last card le, tat 957 take from mi.. at first i tot she wan to put on the table leh.. but she held on to it!! i was like "???"
got once, dear dear was trying to memorise which number to hit, den the 957 go so close to him to see the cards.. den need to collect money from the rest she go collect le den pass to mi.. aiyo, u cant imagine how mi n minmin was laughing like hell la.. the 957 is like our entertainment last night lor.. oops!! heehee..
i decided le.. i wan to hao hao love moi dear dear, canot be unfair to him cux he's reali very very good to mi.. he make mi feel so bliss can..
its been very long dun haf this kind of feeling le lor.. so i mux cherish!! minmin told mi he said never had anybody gave him this kind of feeling.. ^_^
bu guan san qi er shi yi, jue ding hao hao ai ni~
Saturday, March 10, 2007
tat day, yk msg mi VERY EARLY in the morning.. 5plus in the morning. its a surprise i actualli heard moi fone ring. anyway, yepz, so msg wid him lor. surprise? haas. dunno y i bother to reply him oso. told moiself not to let him mess up moi life again. we tok abt lots of stuff. tok abt things we never said before. tat dumbo left one week to graduation, quit school le. haix. dunno wad to sae him. it wasnt easy for him to come so far, though he hadnt been doing well. but at least can fare bah. thinking back, it seems like i've been silently giving him support all these years. haas.
i wont deny tat i might still haf some feelings. but reali impossible le. i might still care but~ as a friend bah. purely friends. wont call him moi "ex", he's not moi present either. somebody special bah. somebody i truely loved.
as for the present one, wont call him moi "bf" either. dunno y, jux couldnt. to be honest, no special feelings. jux purely, hao gan. in fact, sometimes i feel so lost. dunno whether wad im doing is right anot. or izzit purely to numb moiself? im being unfair to him. but dun wan to lose him either. becux he reali dotes on mi alot? haix. another r/s wid hell lots of obstacles. headache. even more headache when im not even clear of moiself. arghhh!!!!!!
tat day go D&D, moi khakis heard got ppl come fetch mi kpo le la. den when i sae he's so much older den our age, penny ask whether im suffering from wad setbacks. haas. see, i guess tat's prob y im keeping moi mouth shut bah. jux couldnt bring moiself to tell ppl, "hey look, im attached. tat who n who is moi bf." i jux couldnt. even couldnt upload our photos to friendster. canot open, can onli underground. sigh.
noe wad, i noe ppl moi age sure sae the same thing. "wp, u can find a better one." oh well, tats wad penny been telling mi. tats wad moi sisters been telling mi.
toking abt them, supposed to meet them today. but i woke up late. den dun feel like going out le. dunno la, dun reali like to go jalan wid them oso. everytime see those girl girl stuff. den i owaes wait outside the shop. very sianz can. noe them 7yrs le. sae is sisters. but dunno y, not close wid them. yeah, moi sisters. but dey dunno everything abt mi. nopex. weird? haas.
alright, gotta go. other day den upload moi D&D pics. btw, i reali look like princess tat day can. simply love moi dressing tat day. ;P
i wont deny tat i might still haf some feelings. but reali impossible le. i might still care but~ as a friend bah. purely friends. wont call him moi "ex", he's not moi present either. somebody special bah. somebody i truely loved.
as for the present one, wont call him moi "bf" either. dunno y, jux couldnt. to be honest, no special feelings. jux purely, hao gan. in fact, sometimes i feel so lost. dunno whether wad im doing is right anot. or izzit purely to numb moiself? im being unfair to him. but dun wan to lose him either. becux he reali dotes on mi alot? haix. another r/s wid hell lots of obstacles. headache. even more headache when im not even clear of moiself. arghhh!!!!!!
tat day go D&D, moi khakis heard got ppl come fetch mi kpo le la. den when i sae he's so much older den our age, penny ask whether im suffering from wad setbacks. haas. see, i guess tat's prob y im keeping moi mouth shut bah. jux couldnt bring moiself to tell ppl, "hey look, im attached. tat who n who is moi bf." i jux couldnt. even couldnt upload our photos to friendster. canot open, can onli underground. sigh.
noe wad, i noe ppl moi age sure sae the same thing. "wp, u can find a better one." oh well, tats wad penny been telling mi. tats wad moi sisters been telling mi.
toking abt them, supposed to meet them today. but i woke up late. den dun feel like going out le. dunno la, dun reali like to go jalan wid them oso. everytime see those girl girl stuff. den i owaes wait outside the shop. very sianz can. noe them 7yrs le. sae is sisters. but dunno y, not close wid them. yeah, moi sisters. but dey dunno everything abt mi. nopex. weird? haas.
alright, gotta go. other day den upload moi D&D pics. btw, i reali look like princess tat day can. simply love moi dressing tat day. ;P
Monday, March 05, 2007
tat day cz asked mi a very weird question, "wad happen to u n yk?" i was like, "huh?" we din even contact each other, wad could haf happened? she said yk asked if i got chu shi, oh well, jux haf a feeling tat sumtink's not right.. couldnt be anything good.. prob something bad abt mi again.. wadever.
ytd quarrel again. becux of tat superglue, AGAIN. actuali not reali quarrel, but piggie give mi face. =( cux he saw superglue disturb mi. is he disturb mi not i go near him leh!! den before tat minmin oso gif mi attitude becux somebody she dun like came.. 2 very close ppl attacked mi tgt.. i almost dropped tears!! felt so the wad la.. i understand minmin situation, i dun blame her.. cux if mi, i oso will bo hiu ppl de.. but still, feel so... haix..
went interview today.. jiejie personally interview mi.. make mi feel so awkward.. she speak angmoh to mi.. i so not used to it la.. she owaes speak to mi in chinese de.. die lor, think i flung the interview.. i oso dunno.. jiejie sae thursday let mi noe.. pray hard ba..
im feeling so bored now.. dunno wad i typing oso.. found the instructions on how to file the tax.. but piggie sae mux print a copy for reference.. ho seh lor, moi lappy no printer.. mux use didi's com.. sumore i saw the form online, so chim!! i dun understand!! tmr den file ba.. no hurry.. guess the filing prob take mi the whole day.. omgosh!! i wan to go shop for mi D&D stuff leh.. i nid to decorate moi shoes!! DIY!! howhowhow!!!
whole day on fone wid piggie. firx thing from him was scolding. cux i nv msg him when i wake up. haas. ppl worried i overslept nv go interview. lolx. dat time i told him, dun be so fierce when give mi morning call. den next day, he gentle gentle i not used to it tat i fall back to sleep!! lolx!! i miss piggie leh.. ytd got dream of him wor. think wednesday den can see him. steamboat session!! eat eat eat again!!
ytd quarrel again. becux of tat superglue, AGAIN. actuali not reali quarrel, but piggie give mi face. =( cux he saw superglue disturb mi. is he disturb mi not i go near him leh!! den before tat minmin oso gif mi attitude becux somebody she dun like came.. 2 very close ppl attacked mi tgt.. i almost dropped tears!! felt so the wad la.. i understand minmin situation, i dun blame her.. cux if mi, i oso will bo hiu ppl de.. but still, feel so... haix..
went interview today.. jiejie personally interview mi.. make mi feel so awkward.. she speak angmoh to mi.. i so not used to it la.. she owaes speak to mi in chinese de.. die lor, think i flung the interview.. i oso dunno.. jiejie sae thursday let mi noe.. pray hard ba..
im feeling so bored now.. dunno wad i typing oso.. found the instructions on how to file the tax.. but piggie sae mux print a copy for reference.. ho seh lor, moi lappy no printer.. mux use didi's com.. sumore i saw the form online, so chim!! i dun understand!! tmr den file ba.. no hurry.. guess the filing prob take mi the whole day.. omgosh!! i wan to go shop for mi D&D stuff leh.. i nid to decorate moi shoes!! DIY!! howhowhow!!!
whole day on fone wid piggie. firx thing from him was scolding. cux i nv msg him when i wake up. haas. ppl worried i overslept nv go interview. lolx. dat time i told him, dun be so fierce when give mi morning call. den next day, he gentle gentle i not used to it tat i fall back to sleep!! lolx!! i miss piggie leh.. ytd got dream of him wor. think wednesday den can see him. steamboat session!! eat eat eat again!!
Friday, March 02, 2007
whoohoo!! seems like decades since i last update.. hmm.. been busying wid dong dong cheng recently, had lotsa fun and a new "daughter"!! "???" whahaha.. aiya, the yuzhen la.. dunno y oso, like superglue lidat stick to mi liao.. everybody find her very irritating but i stil will play wid her.. haas.. even moi mum hates her to the core.. shifu see i bring her everywhere oso shocked.. i noe who is she la.. maybe fate ba.. or maybe becux.. oh well, kids are innocent..
jux submitted resume to hongthai, moi jiejie work dere leh.. for 10yrs liao wor.. hopefully can get in den heehee.. i can fly le!! i believe i can fly.. i believe i can touch the sky!! whahaha..
i am so so so happy recently la.. becux of... hmmm.. shant say anything.. TOP SECRET!! actuali got another reason oso, saw his blog.. ppl change add liao wor.. anyway, haha.. i haf moi ways.. saw the photos i dun feel hurt anymore le!! instead, i was blessing them wor!! i put down le.. reali put down le.. i did it!!! tat day, he very very wad la.. then i bth liao, i call his mum tell her the truth, seems like she was alrdy told.. den when she tok to mi like very paiseh lidat.. aiya, auntie, over liao.. mi n ur son you yuan wu fen, bo bian la..
but to him, i wan to sae this lor.. "dun keep ur mum in the dark, still the word, treasure. not onli ur baby, treasure ur loved ones, ur family. cux they are the ones who will not abandon u when crisis comes."
to minmin, i oso wan to sae the same thing lor..
"gal, u mux be strong. someday, somewhere, there will be a person who will not let ur tears drop again. u are the apple in everybody's eyes. keep ur smile, cux u never know who is falling in love with ur smile. u are still young, stay tall, look far. i'll be there for u!!"
to bx, i doubt he ever noes i got a blog, but anyway, feel sorry for the way i treat him ytd la.. suddenly hot suddenly cold.. i saw his eyes, i noe how he's feeling. haix.. i oso dunno how to sae la.. went out wid him two times.. two times oso go kbox.. tat kbox siao.. got once, i abit seh seh leh.. den lie down on his shoulder.. the feeling very nice leh.. very comfy.. BUT!! the next day, becux of him i quarrel wid somebody!! sigh.. tat somebody jealous la den whole day dun talk to mi!! humph!! stupid mr. pig!!
shit lor.. im missing tat piggie!! oh no.. last nite jux saw him leh.. omgosh!! im falling in love.. help!!
monday got job interview le!! wish mi success!!
jux submitted resume to hongthai, moi jiejie work dere leh.. for 10yrs liao wor.. hopefully can get in den heehee.. i can fly le!! i believe i can fly.. i believe i can touch the sky!! whahaha..
i am so so so happy recently la.. becux of... hmmm.. shant say anything.. TOP SECRET!! actuali got another reason oso, saw his blog.. ppl change add liao wor.. anyway, haha.. i haf moi ways.. saw the photos i dun feel hurt anymore le!! instead, i was blessing them wor!! i put down le.. reali put down le.. i did it!!! tat day, he very very wad la.. then i bth liao, i call his mum tell her the truth, seems like she was alrdy told.. den when she tok to mi like very paiseh lidat.. aiya, auntie, over liao.. mi n ur son you yuan wu fen, bo bian la..
but to him, i wan to sae this lor.. "dun keep ur mum in the dark, still the word, treasure. not onli ur baby, treasure ur loved ones, ur family. cux they are the ones who will not abandon u when crisis comes."
to minmin, i oso wan to sae the same thing lor..
"gal, u mux be strong. someday, somewhere, there will be a person who will not let ur tears drop again. u are the apple in everybody's eyes. keep ur smile, cux u never know who is falling in love with ur smile. u are still young, stay tall, look far. i'll be there for u!!"
to bx, i doubt he ever noes i got a blog, but anyway, feel sorry for the way i treat him ytd la.. suddenly hot suddenly cold.. i saw his eyes, i noe how he's feeling. haix.. i oso dunno how to sae la.. went out wid him two times.. two times oso go kbox.. tat kbox siao.. got once, i abit seh seh leh.. den lie down on his shoulder.. the feeling very nice leh.. very comfy.. BUT!! the next day, becux of him i quarrel wid somebody!! sigh.. tat somebody jealous la den whole day dun talk to mi!! humph!! stupid mr. pig!!
shit lor.. im missing tat piggie!! oh no.. last nite jux saw him leh.. omgosh!! im falling in love.. help!!
monday got job interview le!! wish mi success!!
Friday, February 16, 2007
back to blogging again.. haas.. im bored la..
waiting for daddy to go chinatown since 12pm.. until now, daddy's half day work still haven end yet.. *shake head*
went shopping wid zan n ljj ytd.. hmm, been quite some time since i go shopping wid em but i guess i noe y la.. moi shopping style is very very different from them bah.. kinda used to shopping alone le lor.. i noe wad i wan to buy den i jux go shop for the things i wan.. den i definitely will roam every single shop regardless the price de lor.. influence from US? i dunno la.. i dun reali look at the price when i shop in US lor.. cux everything is like so cheap can.. n is branded one sumore.. i miss those shopping days.. anyway, managed to find a pair of heels for moi D&D.. not bad la.. 43bucks.. high n stable.. n most imptly, it matches moi dress.. thanx gals.. =)
so now moi D&D stuff more or less set le.. except for the makeup n hairstyling bah.. oh, n the manicure n pedicure too.. well, its gonna be moi last D&D leh.. of cux mux mei mei la.. if not, dunno mux wait until when den can wear evening gown again le lor..
oh n i met nana's boy.. he look so much like tomorrow lor!! moi goodness!! i was actualli stunned when he wanted to shake hands wif mi.. alamak.. jj sae he look more stable n decent.. but i find it ok onli leh.. where got decent? ok nia la.. decent guys dun go clubbing one leh.. never judge one from his looks..
im the best example lor.. from appearance, i look a few years younger.. n i look so innocent n decent.. those guai guai type, very good at studies one.. but haha!! gotcha, im totalli opposite can.. moi grades sucks.. dun be shocked when i sae moi gpa is onli 2.sumtink.. n oh, i dun think im going uni le.. well, the one that i wanted to apply is like so many subjects i study before le lor.. n need to study language oso.. pls la, moi language is the worse subject lor.. no more compo for mi after o levels!! den the other local U is like gpa mux be min 3.2^.. if not need to take SAT paper.. aiyo, spare mi from all these bah!!
so, i guess i most prob, rather can sae confirm is going to find job le lor.. going to work n work n work until i die le.. i wan to be tour guide.. those outbound one.. den everytime oso bringing tour overseas.. in fact, i alrdy got it planned: i will get the tour company to sponsor mi for moi tour guide licence, thereaafter i will be able to bring tours ard.. start from singapore firx.. den slowly accumulate experience n bring tours overseas.. in future, i would probably stay in singapore onli for max 3months.. YES!!
i wan to be kept busy busy busy.. den i wont think so much n lose slp every nite.. at least i have sumtink to do.. at least i am learning sumtink new everyday.. n the sense of satisfaction..
probably go worldwide to do voluntary work too.. yeah!!
oh yeah, daddy finali back le.. going shopping le loh!! adios~ happy new year everyone!!
waiting for daddy to go chinatown since 12pm.. until now, daddy's half day work still haven end yet.. *shake head*
went shopping wid zan n ljj ytd.. hmm, been quite some time since i go shopping wid em but i guess i noe y la.. moi shopping style is very very different from them bah.. kinda used to shopping alone le lor.. i noe wad i wan to buy den i jux go shop for the things i wan.. den i definitely will roam every single shop regardless the price de lor.. influence from US? i dunno la.. i dun reali look at the price when i shop in US lor.. cux everything is like so cheap can.. n is branded one sumore.. i miss those shopping days.. anyway, managed to find a pair of heels for moi D&D.. not bad la.. 43bucks.. high n stable.. n most imptly, it matches moi dress.. thanx gals.. =)
so now moi D&D stuff more or less set le.. except for the makeup n hairstyling bah.. oh, n the manicure n pedicure too.. well, its gonna be moi last D&D leh.. of cux mux mei mei la.. if not, dunno mux wait until when den can wear evening gown again le lor..
oh n i met nana's boy.. he look so much like tomorrow lor!! moi goodness!! i was actualli stunned when he wanted to shake hands wif mi.. alamak.. jj sae he look more stable n decent.. but i find it ok onli leh.. where got decent? ok nia la.. decent guys dun go clubbing one leh.. never judge one from his looks..
im the best example lor.. from appearance, i look a few years younger.. n i look so innocent n decent.. those guai guai type, very good at studies one.. but haha!! gotcha, im totalli opposite can.. moi grades sucks.. dun be shocked when i sae moi gpa is onli 2.sumtink.. n oh, i dun think im going uni le.. well, the one that i wanted to apply is like so many subjects i study before le lor.. n need to study language oso.. pls la, moi language is the worse subject lor.. no more compo for mi after o levels!! den the other local U is like gpa mux be min 3.2^.. if not need to take SAT paper.. aiyo, spare mi from all these bah!!
so, i guess i most prob, rather can sae confirm is going to find job le lor.. going to work n work n work until i die le.. i wan to be tour guide.. those outbound one.. den everytime oso bringing tour overseas.. in fact, i alrdy got it planned: i will get the tour company to sponsor mi for moi tour guide licence, thereaafter i will be able to bring tours ard.. start from singapore firx.. den slowly accumulate experience n bring tours overseas.. in future, i would probably stay in singapore onli for max 3months.. YES!!
i wan to be kept busy busy busy.. den i wont think so much n lose slp every nite.. at least i have sumtink to do.. at least i am learning sumtink new everyday.. n the sense of satisfaction..
probably go worldwide to do voluntary work too.. yeah!!
oh yeah, daddy finali back le.. going shopping le loh!! adios~ happy new year everyone!!
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
beginning to understand y are some things happening the way it is. while some ppl are as caring as forever, moi buddies for life, some ppl are jux so heartless. for the firx minute dey can sae sweet nothings to u, how much dey miss u n waiting for u n blah blah blah, the next minute dey could be hugging some other babes enjoying themselves. babes? haas. wth. anyway, heart has been numbed. wadever is happening is not affecting mi at all. not a bit. jux cudnt understand their behaviour. u noe, guys. oh well, xin xian gan bah. dun wori, im not going to curse n swear. i mean, wad for? wad comes around goes around. y should i wori at all? bless them. or him, rather. nope, y bless him? bless mi instead bah.
n for whoever is concerned, moi feelings are dead alrdy. since long long ago. oh well, i was betrayed once n again. so, y should i still be waiting? waiting to be hurt again? nope, no more waiting. good things will come. moi future lies in moi hands.
happy valentine's day.
n for whoever is concerned, moi feelings are dead alrdy. since long long ago. oh well, i was betrayed once n again. so, y should i still be waiting? waiting to be hurt again? nope, no more waiting. good things will come. moi future lies in moi hands.
happy valentine's day.
i swear i will never ever help toh zong qing ever again!!
qi si wo le!!!
i agreed to help him run the event cux he's moi fren
cux i jux came back when he asked
cux i was jobless when he asked
end up becux of this stupid job, i din look for jobs
cux i cudnt start work immediately, it will clash
i went for interview at sentosa
was recruited but becux of this job, i cudnt go for the training
nvm, tat isnt the most irritating part
first, the location was wrong
den there is NO publicity at all
how do you expect ppl to noe wads ur booth abt??
den when we suggest poster, sae NO BUDGET
pls la hor, no budget den still wan to rent costume $60per day
2sets = $120*2 =$240
nvm, so we decided to do sumtink
we fork out money to enlarge the brochure & laminated it
sumhow it works
at least more ppl came to our booth n check it out
he din even sae "thank you"
instead, he said we having holiday camp
if u think we r so useless, im telling u i dun give a damn to this job!!
IDIOT!!!
den keep twisting n turning the conditions in the contract
uncle, if u keep twist n turn den wad is the contract for in the firx place??
fire the emcee sumore
hell lor
the emcee is firx time ok
n he did his best le lor
u not there u dunno wads happening in between lor
we slack but we got do work one ok!!
becux u r moi fren, moi polymate, moi gangmate
doesnt mean everything oso can de lor
but becux u r moi fren, moi polymate, moi gangmate
i dun wan to make things difficult for u
i everything oso anything
but tat doesnt mean u can take advantage of me!!
two more days to go
endure~
qi si wo le!!!
i agreed to help him run the event cux he's moi fren
cux i jux came back when he asked
cux i was jobless when he asked
end up becux of this stupid job, i din look for jobs
cux i cudnt start work immediately, it will clash
i went for interview at sentosa
was recruited but becux of this job, i cudnt go for the training
nvm, tat isnt the most irritating part
first, the location was wrong
den there is NO publicity at all
how do you expect ppl to noe wads ur booth abt??
den when we suggest poster, sae NO BUDGET
pls la hor, no budget den still wan to rent costume $60per day
2sets = $120*2 =$240
nvm, so we decided to do sumtink
we fork out money to enlarge the brochure & laminated it
sumhow it works
at least more ppl came to our booth n check it out
he din even sae "thank you"
instead, he said we having holiday camp
if u think we r so useless, im telling u i dun give a damn to this job!!
IDIOT!!!
den keep twisting n turning the conditions in the contract
uncle, if u keep twist n turn den wad is the contract for in the firx place??
fire the emcee sumore
hell lor
the emcee is firx time ok
n he did his best le lor
u not there u dunno wads happening in between lor
we slack but we got do work one ok!!
becux u r moi fren, moi polymate, moi gangmate
doesnt mean everything oso can de lor
but becux u r moi fren, moi polymate, moi gangmate
i dun wan to make things difficult for u
i everything oso anything
but tat doesnt mean u can take advantage of me!!
two more days to go
endure~
Sunday, February 11, 2007
wads wrong signing in using blogger? y mux change to google leh? -_-!!
alright, so these few days have been fucking boring lah.. sitting at the booth waiting for money to roll in. sounds pretty good eh? sit for 9 hours got 50bucks. can even play poker cards, bingo, read magazines, blah blah blah.. typically slacking the whole day lor. cant believe this is how im spending moi days. damn. y is moi life so meaningless? i nid to get on moi feet but it seems so difficult. sigh.
im onli turning 20 this yr. yet somehow im feeling so much older, in fact alot alot older than moi actual age. i look younger but i feel older. how contradicting. y am i living like a dying man? i need some spice to moi life!!!
alright, so these few days have been fucking boring lah.. sitting at the booth waiting for money to roll in. sounds pretty good eh? sit for 9 hours got 50bucks. can even play poker cards, bingo, read magazines, blah blah blah.. typically slacking the whole day lor. cant believe this is how im spending moi days. damn. y is moi life so meaningless? i nid to get on moi feet but it seems so difficult. sigh.
im onli turning 20 this yr. yet somehow im feeling so much older, in fact alot alot older than moi actual age. i look younger but i feel older. how contradicting. y am i living like a dying man? i need some spice to moi life!!!
Monday, February 05, 2007
woke up early in the morning to help mum change angbao money
no idea y i promised i'll help her in the firx place
waited in the bank for like one hour, standing.
den another hour in the clinic
dunno whether its bliss or not
wb sae sick before cny is a bliss, izzit?
been visiting clinics since im back from the states
haf another checkup to go to
havent book appointment
sigh
alright, back to the clinic
doctor verified its merely rashes
prescribed some medication tat will cause drowsiness
but before i even pop one into moi mouth, im alrdy deep aslp
at 12noon?? muahaha
end up nv go help SP chu shi
cant even rmb wad cy tell mi over the phone
lolx
press conference on coming wed
ms wang sae follow-up conference
tat means those who were once interviewed have to attend
tat means im going to be on air again
-_-!!
this time need preparation sumore
need ppt n blah blah blah
kenny chua called to hear moi experience
dunno who the hell is tat la
but same reaction when i sae i lived in the treehouse
come on ppl, treehouse is not a house on a treetop
i miss moi treehouse sia
i even dreamt of it now and then
last nite, i dreamt of the confectionary
glad to hear from sato everybody's doing fine
the tornado din hit orlando at all
god bless
was trying to figure out how to file the tax federation form
but i dun seems to understand a single word
been too long since i last read english?
dun think so leh, i was still reading when i was in the plane
couldnt be tat bad
still, i dun understand a single thing
i merely wan back moi tax refund
y make life so difficult for mi?
no idea y i promised i'll help her in the firx place
waited in the bank for like one hour, standing.
den another hour in the clinic
dunno whether its bliss or not
wb sae sick before cny is a bliss, izzit?
been visiting clinics since im back from the states
haf another checkup to go to
havent book appointment
sigh
alright, back to the clinic
doctor verified its merely rashes
prescribed some medication tat will cause drowsiness
but before i even pop one into moi mouth, im alrdy deep aslp
at 12noon?? muahaha
end up nv go help SP chu shi
cant even rmb wad cy tell mi over the phone
lolx
press conference on coming wed
ms wang sae follow-up conference
tat means those who were once interviewed have to attend
tat means im going to be on air again
-_-!!
this time need preparation sumore
need ppt n blah blah blah
kenny chua called to hear moi experience
dunno who the hell is tat la
but same reaction when i sae i lived in the treehouse
come on ppl, treehouse is not a house on a treetop
i miss moi treehouse sia
i even dreamt of it now and then
last nite, i dreamt of the confectionary
glad to hear from sato everybody's doing fine
the tornado din hit orlando at all
god bless
was trying to figure out how to file the tax federation form
but i dun seems to understand a single word
been too long since i last read english?
dun think so leh, i was still reading when i was in the plane
couldnt be tat bad
still, i dun understand a single thing
i merely wan back moi tax refund
y make life so difficult for mi?
having little bubbles on moi hand
firx it was onli on the third finger
den dunno since when it started to spread
now almost both moi hands are filled with those little bubbles
mum's afraid it's hand foot mouth disease
i had totally no clue to wad it is
it itches a little n is spreading more n more
went to ikea wid daddy mummy jux now to find a new sofa set
but to no avail
saw a bedroom display that i love it loads
mum keep telling mi how to use n wad to do
as if im shopping for moi house
haas
how i wish
saw young couples strolling hands in hands
having headaches on which furniture best suits their new house
envy
if onli... ...
as one gets older, one tends to start thinking for the future
i used to have a dream
a dream that i couldnt fulfil it alone
mickey saes believe n ur dream will come true
so should i continue to believe?
i looked up at moi wardrobe
y are there stil so many pressies??
i've been back for 3wks alrdy!!
its alrdy feb, time to shop for moi evening gown
D&D in early march
this time, i wan to be a princess
little princess =)
firx it was onli on the third finger
den dunno since when it started to spread
now almost both moi hands are filled with those little bubbles
mum's afraid it's hand foot mouth disease
i had totally no clue to wad it is
it itches a little n is spreading more n more
went to ikea wid daddy mummy jux now to find a new sofa set
but to no avail
saw a bedroom display that i love it loads
mum keep telling mi how to use n wad to do
as if im shopping for moi house
haas
how i wish
saw young couples strolling hands in hands
having headaches on which furniture best suits their new house
envy
if onli... ...
as one gets older, one tends to start thinking for the future
i used to have a dream
a dream that i couldnt fulfil it alone
mickey saes believe n ur dream will come true
so should i continue to believe?
i looked up at moi wardrobe
y are there stil so many pressies??
i've been back for 3wks alrdy!!
its alrdy feb, time to shop for moi evening gown
D&D in early march
this time, i wan to be a princess
little princess =)
Friday, February 02, 2007
beginning to realise sumtink's missing in moi life; moi goals, moi dreams, the substance in life is missing. waking up everyday to wonder wads next. life's getting kinda meaningless. its not onli bored, its the motivation that is missing. i nid to find sumtink to keep mi going. even moi fav dragon ball is not keeping mi motivated. romance? long lost. i dunno wad i wan. in fact, im losing interest in every single thing. nutink seems to keep mi entertained. im losing the directions in life. am stuck at the crossroads, not knowing where to head next. somebody lead mi, pls. i miss the days in the states.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
seems like coming online has become a habit, jux dun feel right if moi laptop is left to rot. anyway, went to chinatown for the lightings jux now. i mux sae the planning sux. wonder who's in charge, make us walk up n down, up n down for at least a dozen times. oh, n we had to climb over the fence for couple times too. -_-!! n i was running high fever. imagine a sick person walking up n down the streets, in the rain sumore. alright, the rain wasnt tat bad. more like a drizzle. still, there were a couple times i jux feel like fainting to spare mi from all the moving. i was literally dragging moi feet as if there were chains on them. it was tat bad okay? i jux dun feel right. whole body was aching, body temperature interchanging between hot n cold. totally no appetite n strength at all. den, for goodness sake, reminds mi of somebody.
for a second, i was confused not knowing whether wad i did was right. after reading his tagboard, he seems perfectly fine. or maybe not, he tends to hide his feelings. somehow, i have a feeling things r not going right for him. i dunno y, but im usually quite accurate. lets hope im wrong this time.
for a second, i was confused not knowing whether wad i did was right. after reading his tagboard, he seems perfectly fine. or maybe not, he tends to hide his feelings. somehow, i have a feeling things r not going right for him. i dunno y, but im usually quite accurate. lets hope im wrong this time.
Friday, January 26, 2007
Thursday, January 25, 2007
read his recent post, sigh. guess he got somebody new again. aiyo, y am i sighing. dunno la. y, y he could feel guilt n regret to somebody but not mi? y he can care whether ppl hate him anot but not mi? y am i of no standing at all? BEN DAN!! WAKE UP WAKE UP!! cz sae he missed mi when i was in the states. sigh. when i was in the states onli bah. now come back liao, treatment oso different liao. am i reali so irritating?
im bored. VERY bored. i wan to go K.. nobody to go with mi. i wan to go watch movie. nobody go with mi. i wan a date leh. no patuo, no date. valentine coming. no valentine. y so jialat???
aiya, no date no date la.. last yr oso no date. anyway, im going to be working on v-dae so shouldnt be too much of loneliness. but hor.. y am i working when ppl are sweet-honeying?? aiya, wadever la.. single or attached or married or divorce.. wadever ur status, life still goes on.
n why why why??? becux of tat $300 bucks, now im stuck. i canot go interview cux i canot start work immediately. if i start work, tat feb job sure clash. but i alrdy promised zq.. canot back out la. aiyo, becux of $300.. im giving up better opportunities. if not, i could be earning at least $1000++. nope, i think moi min wage can hit $1400 at least. alamak, i stil wan to learn driving de leh. n moi university fees. darn.
im bored. VERY bored. i wan to go K.. nobody to go with mi. i wan to go watch movie. nobody go with mi. i wan a date leh. no patuo, no date. valentine coming. no valentine. y so jialat???
aiya, no date no date la.. last yr oso no date. anyway, im going to be working on v-dae so shouldnt be too much of loneliness. but hor.. y am i working when ppl are sweet-honeying?? aiya, wadever la.. single or attached or married or divorce.. wadever ur status, life still goes on.
n why why why??? becux of tat $300 bucks, now im stuck. i canot go interview cux i canot start work immediately. if i start work, tat feb job sure clash. but i alrdy promised zq.. canot back out la. aiyo, becux of $300.. im giving up better opportunities. if not, i could be earning at least $1000++. nope, i think moi min wage can hit $1400 at least. alamak, i stil wan to learn driving de leh. n moi university fees. darn.
for some reason, i deleted the posts. i dunno y, but since its affecting them tat much. somehow, i still wan to protect their diginity. rumours can spread n it can get real ugly. i dun wan it to start wid mi. moi tots offended them. got them realli agitated n uptight. i have nutink to sae. i wan to go back but deep inside i knew, im the last person dey wan to see. cux when im ard, trouble follows. somehow, i seems to be a troublemaker, i dunno y. every single thing i do is wrong. moi every movement is being watched n criticised. being looked down, n outcast is not a nice feeling.
sometimes i wonder, could it been better if i never come back? i lost the sense of belonging.
im tired. leave mi alone.
sometimes i wonder, could it been better if i never come back? i lost the sense of belonging.
im tired. leave mi alone.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
tot of study uni, did online reseach, ask teacher.. den to realise one cruel fact
moi family couldnt afford
fees for uni is damn ex
plus moi bro stil studying
mum sae sell house
sigh
forget it
dun study le
be realistic
find a job bah
he msg mi ytd
ask mi where am i
den no reply
today, again ask mi where im going later
again, no reply
dunno wad he's up to
tok to his mum ytd
his mum as usual so excited
she's probably the same wid everybody bah
keep asking mi for dinner
anything lor
lets wait n c if she remembers to call
haas
went to help grace bring tour ytd
to be exact, is follower onli
actual is tmr
go national museum
aiseh, now high tech liao leh
self-guided tour wid the help of "companion"
but.. i dun like
i stil prefer reading the words from the boards
haas
den went back for moi dragon training
no longer the same le
sp mess up le
cux laoda din hand over, he threw over
i wan to pull sp tgt
i dun haf to do so but jux cudnt bear to see it fall
its a big challenge
no idea if i can make it
dun even noe where to start
dashu sae let yongjin run by us
the mixture of the poly grads+wc+dunno who n who
he said he held a meeting before
n many were interested
good lor
at least grad liao stil got place to go
wad abt mi?
i wan to go back moi hometown
the place where i nv left before, not at all
but everybody tot i peng
i din comment on anything
xin zhi du ming jiu hao
i join sp to learn dragon ball
dashu is from weijin, he came to teach sp dragon
im close wid em cux we get along
but i nv joined em
dere was a line in between all along
tat's all
there's a reason y i nv been to wlcs for long
n the reason is clear
nv been doesnt mean i left
i was born there
but i learn nutink there
too many ppl too little opportunities
even when in sp
i had a goal in mind
i wanted to be trained well
to go back n bring proud to wlcs
wad a big ambition
nv will be fulfilled
moi family couldnt afford
fees for uni is damn ex
plus moi bro stil studying
mum sae sell house
sigh
forget it
dun study le
be realistic
find a job bah
he msg mi ytd
ask mi where am i
den no reply
today, again ask mi where im going later
again, no reply
dunno wad he's up to
tok to his mum ytd
his mum as usual so excited
she's probably the same wid everybody bah
keep asking mi for dinner
anything lor
lets wait n c if she remembers to call
haas
went to help grace bring tour ytd
to be exact, is follower onli
actual is tmr
go national museum
aiseh, now high tech liao leh
self-guided tour wid the help of "companion"
but.. i dun like
i stil prefer reading the words from the boards
haas
den went back for moi dragon training
no longer the same le
sp mess up le
cux laoda din hand over, he threw over
i wan to pull sp tgt
i dun haf to do so but jux cudnt bear to see it fall
its a big challenge
no idea if i can make it
dun even noe where to start
dashu sae let yongjin run by us
the mixture of the poly grads+wc+dunno who n who
he said he held a meeting before
n many were interested
good lor
at least grad liao stil got place to go
wad abt mi?
i wan to go back moi hometown
the place where i nv left before, not at all
but everybody tot i peng
i din comment on anything
xin zhi du ming jiu hao
i join sp to learn dragon ball
dashu is from weijin, he came to teach sp dragon
im close wid em cux we get along
but i nv joined em
dere was a line in between all along
tat's all
there's a reason y i nv been to wlcs for long
n the reason is clear
nv been doesnt mean i left
i was born there
but i learn nutink there
too many ppl too little opportunities
even when in sp
i had a goal in mind
i wanted to be trained well
to go back n bring proud to wlcs
wad a big ambition
nv will be fulfilled
Friday, January 19, 2007
i am so hungry, so tired now
i need moi beauty sleep!!!!!
haven been sleeping much lately
appetite oso becoming smaller
speech oso lesser
wad happened to the "cheerleader"???
woke up early to pick up moi photos
tonnes of photos
first time ever needed a big red bag to bring back moi photos
917pcs okay? got it?
den met fx for lunch at causeway
fx become more obedient le sia
hmm.. ppl do change over time, i guess
ate qiu lian ban mian
hmm, the standard seems to drop le leh..
but long time nv eat so anything la
cant believe i was full wid onli half a bowl
gosh!
i used to eat ALOT!!
nvm.. den went walk walk
while waiting for fx outside courts
look at the escalator n remind mi of the past
sigh
den? go pasar malam walk one round go home le
im onli out for like 1 n 1/2hr
moi goodness
the tot of going home = sians
but bo bian, fx had early lessons
never slp last nite
wanna go home slp
nvm lor
go home sort pics
took one whole day to sort them out n put them into album
finali done
look back at the photos
i miss the times in disney
it was so much fun
so much more relaxing
n more meaningful
at least i have sumtink to do when i was dere
now, im jux like a wandering soul
leading an aimless life
friends, mum all ask mi to go find work
but.. if u recall
i went straight to the states after moi exams
i nid to rest de leh
im no robot
canot pia all the way
even robots need rest
n i mean PLENTY of rest
dunno y, ppl keep asking mi the same question
n moi answer is the same for all who is interested
"nope, no ang moh bf"
thanx for ur concern
i need moi beauty sleep!!!!!
haven been sleeping much lately
appetite oso becoming smaller
speech oso lesser
wad happened to the "cheerleader"???
woke up early to pick up moi photos
tonnes of photos
first time ever needed a big red bag to bring back moi photos
917pcs okay? got it?
den met fx for lunch at causeway
fx become more obedient le sia
hmm.. ppl do change over time, i guess
ate qiu lian ban mian
hmm, the standard seems to drop le leh..
but long time nv eat so anything la
cant believe i was full wid onli half a bowl
gosh!
i used to eat ALOT!!
nvm.. den went walk walk
while waiting for fx outside courts
look at the escalator n remind mi of the past
sigh
den? go pasar malam walk one round go home le
im onli out for like 1 n 1/2hr
moi goodness
the tot of going home = sians
but bo bian, fx had early lessons
never slp last nite
wanna go home slp
nvm lor
go home sort pics
took one whole day to sort them out n put them into album
finali done
look back at the photos
i miss the times in disney
it was so much fun
so much more relaxing
n more meaningful
at least i have sumtink to do when i was dere
now, im jux like a wandering soul
leading an aimless life
friends, mum all ask mi to go find work
but.. if u recall
i went straight to the states after moi exams
i nid to rest de leh
im no robot
canot pia all the way
even robots need rest
n i mean PLENTY of rest
dunno y, ppl keep asking mi the same question
n moi answer is the same for all who is interested
"nope, no ang moh bf"
thanx for ur concern
Thursday, January 18, 2007
now tat im back from the states
im feeling EXTREME bored in sing
maybe im stil adapting?
went to meet moi slk gang
no longer close wid em
i was kinda quiet throughout
even wid moi best buddy
dere seems not much to tok abt
went to help jjc wid their dragon
glad tat im stil able to help
at least i stil rmb how to dance the dragon
been so many months since i last held the dragon ball
i should sae moi pfm today is not bad bah
n dey r so shocked when moi mum sae i jux came back
"came back from where?"
"from the states"
the next immediate reaction, "how old are u?"
lolx.
as usual i guess
the previous batch i lead was shocked when dey find out im older too
=)
bought a cloth wardrobe today
japanese type
now moi room looks so cramp
i dun like tat
i like it spacious
shall do some shifting tmr
n guess wad
i finali went to develop moi photos
n it came up to 917pcs!!
which was equivalent to $275.10
moi goodness!
actuali im ok wid it
until i found out i can save $88 if i had gone to kodak
nvm
forget it
so long moi pics are nice
tat would be good enuff
or perhaps im used to emperor's life
im spending money like water
tat will not do
shall start doing accounts
need to learn saving!!
im bored
im feeling EXTREME bored in sing
maybe im stil adapting?
went to meet moi slk gang
no longer close wid em
i was kinda quiet throughout
even wid moi best buddy
dere seems not much to tok abt
went to help jjc wid their dragon
glad tat im stil able to help
at least i stil rmb how to dance the dragon
been so many months since i last held the dragon ball
i should sae moi pfm today is not bad bah
n dey r so shocked when moi mum sae i jux came back
"came back from where?"
"from the states"
the next immediate reaction, "how old are u?"
lolx.
as usual i guess
the previous batch i lead was shocked when dey find out im older too
=)
bought a cloth wardrobe today
japanese type
now moi room looks so cramp
i dun like tat
i like it spacious
shall do some shifting tmr
n guess wad
i finali went to develop moi photos
n it came up to 917pcs!!
which was equivalent to $275.10
moi goodness!
actuali im ok wid it
until i found out i can save $88 if i had gone to kodak
nvm
forget it
so long moi pics are nice
tat would be good enuff
or perhaps im used to emperor's life
im spending money like water
tat will not do
shall start doing accounts
need to learn saving!!
im bored
Monday, January 15, 2007
on moi last day, i din cry
on the plane back, i din cry
but when i see singapore from above, moi tears dropped
i came back so excited to see everybody
their reaction was onli "you're back"
some dun even noe i was overseas for the past few months
called his daddy to sae im home
he needs to take a while to remember who i am
...
saw him today
he was jux beside
he din see mi
nice to see him again anyway
ask him to choose between mickey, donald n goofy
he like none of them
somehow felt hurt
wanted to give him a keychain
he wan none of it
bought him a mickey vintage shirt
will he wear it?
or hang it in the wardrobe to rot?
haix.
mummy watched mi sort the souvenirs
sae i waste money
saw the jeans n skirts i bought
sae i waste money again
sigh.
i pay everything wid moi salary
i work hard to earn much
to reward myself n all i get is "waste money"
i see the high rise buildings
i took pics in malls
saleslady said cannot take pics
im not getting used to it
i wan to go back orlando
this is not moi home
no sense of belonging
nope.
on the plane back, i din cry
but when i see singapore from above, moi tears dropped
i came back so excited to see everybody
their reaction was onli "you're back"
some dun even noe i was overseas for the past few months
called his daddy to sae im home
he needs to take a while to remember who i am
...
saw him today
he was jux beside
he din see mi
nice to see him again anyway
ask him to choose between mickey, donald n goofy
he like none of them
somehow felt hurt
wanted to give him a keychain
he wan none of it
bought him a mickey vintage shirt
will he wear it?
or hang it in the wardrobe to rot?
haix.
mummy watched mi sort the souvenirs
sae i waste money
saw the jeans n skirts i bought
sae i waste money again
sigh.
i pay everything wid moi salary
i work hard to earn much
to reward myself n all i get is "waste money"
i see the high rise buildings
i took pics in malls
saleslady said cannot take pics
im not getting used to it
i wan to go back orlando
this is not moi home
no sense of belonging
nope.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
was sitting in the bus back from costuming, the driver was playing some soothing mexican songs.. the sky, the scenery, everything.. first time ever paid attention to it.. the sky was blue.. nice blue.. n the clouds were low.. seems so low that its touching the trees.. the sun looks so warmth.. but the weather was cooling.. wad a beautiful day.. moi best ever vacation in usa, alone.
despite i came here alone, without moi family, the first time away from home, so far.. i love it here. the freedom, the comfortness, the friendliness, moi friends, MSE. the tot of leaving this place, moi eyes start to wet.
here, im leading an emperor's life. i live moi own life. i earn for moi keep. bread n water when im penniless. shopping, shopping n more shopping when im rich. everything's coming to an end. end.
i shall bring the happiness here back home, and leave the unhappiness here.
keep smiling. keep believing. dreams will come true.
i will go back home n melt all ur hearts with moi sweetness. beware. im coming. =P
despite i came here alone, without moi family, the first time away from home, so far.. i love it here. the freedom, the comfortness, the friendliness, moi friends, MSE. the tot of leaving this place, moi eyes start to wet.
here, im leading an emperor's life. i live moi own life. i earn for moi keep. bread n water when im penniless. shopping, shopping n more shopping when im rich. everything's coming to an end. end.
i shall bring the happiness here back home, and leave the unhappiness here.
keep smiling. keep believing. dreams will come true.
i will go back home n melt all ur hearts with moi sweetness. beware. im coming. =P
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