back to blogging again.. haas.. im bored la..
waiting for daddy to go chinatown since 12pm.. until now, daddy's half day work still haven end yet.. *shake head*
went shopping wid zan n ljj ytd.. hmm, been quite some time since i go shopping wid em but i guess i noe y la.. moi shopping style is very very different from them bah.. kinda used to shopping alone le lor.. i noe wad i wan to buy den i jux go shop for the things i wan.. den i definitely will roam every single shop regardless the price de lor.. influence from US? i dunno la.. i dun reali look at the price when i shop in US lor.. cux everything is like so cheap can.. n is branded one sumore.. i miss those shopping days.. anyway, managed to find a pair of heels for moi D&D.. not bad la.. 43bucks.. high n stable.. n most imptly, it matches moi dress.. thanx gals.. =)
so now moi D&D stuff more or less set le.. except for the makeup n hairstyling bah.. oh, n the manicure n pedicure too.. well, its gonna be moi last D&D leh.. of cux mux mei mei la.. if not, dunno mux wait until when den can wear evening gown again le lor..
oh n i met nana's boy.. he look so much like tomorrow lor!! moi goodness!! i was actualli stunned when he wanted to shake hands wif mi.. alamak.. jj sae he look more stable n decent.. but i find it ok onli leh.. where got decent? ok nia la.. decent guys dun go clubbing one leh.. never judge one from his looks..
im the best example lor.. from appearance, i look a few years younger.. n i look so innocent n decent.. those guai guai type, very good at studies one.. but haha!! gotcha, im totalli opposite can.. moi grades sucks.. dun be shocked when i sae moi gpa is onli 2.sumtink.. n oh, i dun think im going uni le.. well, the one that i wanted to apply is like so many subjects i study before le lor.. n need to study language oso.. pls la, moi language is the worse subject lor.. no more compo for mi after o levels!! den the other local U is like gpa mux be min 3.2^.. if not need to take SAT paper.. aiyo, spare mi from all these bah!!
so, i guess i most prob, rather can sae confirm is going to find job le lor.. going to work n work n work until i die le.. i wan to be tour guide.. those outbound one.. den everytime oso bringing tour overseas.. in fact, i alrdy got it planned: i will get the tour company to sponsor mi for moi tour guide licence, thereaafter i will be able to bring tours ard.. start from singapore firx.. den slowly accumulate experience n bring tours overseas.. in future, i would probably stay in singapore onli for max 3months.. YES!!
i wan to be kept busy busy busy.. den i wont think so much n lose slp every nite.. at least i have sumtink to do.. at least i am learning sumtink new everyday.. n the sense of satisfaction..
probably go worldwide to do voluntary work too.. yeah!!

oh yeah, daddy finali back le.. going shopping le loh!! adios~ happy new year everyone!!

beginning to understand y are some things happening the way it is. while some ppl are as caring as forever, moi buddies for life, some ppl are jux so heartless. for the firx minute dey can sae sweet nothings to u, how much dey miss u n waiting for u n blah blah blah, the next minute dey could be hugging some other babes enjoying themselves. babes? haas. wth. anyway, heart has been numbed. wadever is happening is not affecting mi at all. not a bit. jux cudnt understand their behaviour. u noe, guys. oh well, xin xian gan bah. dun wori, im not going to curse n swear. i mean, wad for? wad comes around goes around. y should i wori at all? bless them. or him, rather. nope, y bless him? bless mi instead bah.
n for whoever is concerned, moi feelings are dead alrdy. since long long ago. oh well, i was betrayed once n again. so, y should i still be waiting? waiting to be hurt again? nope, no more waiting. good things will come. moi future lies in moi hands.

happy valentine's day.

i swear i will never ever help toh zong qing ever again!!
qi si wo le!!!
i agreed to help him run the event cux he's moi fren
cux i jux came back when he asked
cux i was jobless when he asked

end up becux of this stupid job, i din look for jobs
cux i cudnt start work immediately, it will clash
i went for interview at sentosa
was recruited but becux of this job, i cudnt go for the training
nvm, tat isnt the most irritating part

first, the location was wrong
den there is NO publicity at all
how do you expect ppl to noe wads ur booth abt??
den when we suggest poster, sae NO BUDGET
pls la hor, no budget den still wan to rent costume $60per day
2sets = $120*2 =$240
nvm, so we decided to do sumtink
we fork out money to enlarge the brochure & laminated it
sumhow it works
at least more ppl came to our booth n check it out
he din even sae "thank you"
instead, he said we having holiday camp
if u think we r so useless, im telling u i dun give a damn to this job!!
IDIOT!!!

den keep twisting n turning the conditions in the contract
uncle, if u keep twist n turn den wad is the contract for in the firx place??
fire the emcee sumore
hell lor
the emcee is firx time ok
n he did his best le lor
u not there u dunno wads happening in between lor
we slack but we got do work one ok!!

becux u r moi fren, moi polymate, moi gangmate
doesnt mean everything oso can de lor
but becux u r moi fren, moi polymate, moi gangmate
i dun wan to make things difficult for u
i everything oso anything
but tat doesnt mean u can take advantage of me!!

two more days to go
endure~

wads wrong signing in using blogger? y mux change to google leh? -_-!!
alright, so these few days have been fucking boring lah.. sitting at the booth waiting for money to roll in. sounds pretty good eh? sit for 9 hours got 50bucks. can even play poker cards, bingo, read magazines, blah blah blah.. typically slacking the whole day lor. cant believe this is how im spending moi days. damn. y is moi life so meaningless? i nid to get on moi feet but it seems so difficult. sigh.
im onli turning 20 this yr. yet somehow im feeling so much older, in fact alot alot older than moi actual age. i look younger but i feel older. how contradicting. y am i living like a dying man? i need some spice to moi life!!!

woke up early in the morning to help mum change angbao money
no idea y i promised i'll help her in the firx place
waited in the bank for like one hour, standing.
den another hour in the clinic
dunno whether its bliss or not
wb sae sick before cny is a bliss, izzit?
been visiting clinics since im back from the states
haf another checkup to go to
havent book appointment
sigh
alright, back to the clinic
doctor verified its merely rashes
prescribed some medication tat will cause drowsiness
but before i even pop one into moi mouth, im alrdy deep aslp
at 12noon?? muahaha
end up nv go help SP chu shi
cant even rmb wad cy tell mi over the phone
lolx

press conference on coming wed
ms wang sae follow-up conference
tat means those who were once interviewed have to attend
tat means im going to be on air again
-_-!!
this time need preparation sumore
need ppt n blah blah blah
kenny chua called to hear moi experience
dunno who the hell is tat la
but same reaction when i sae i lived in the treehouse
come on ppl, treehouse is not a house on a treetop
i miss moi treehouse sia
i even dreamt of it now and then
last nite, i dreamt of the confectionary
glad to hear from sato everybody's doing fine
the tornado din hit orlando at all
god bless

was trying to figure out how to file the tax federation form
but i dun seems to understand a single word
been too long since i last read english?
dun think so leh, i was still reading when i was in the plane
couldnt be tat bad
still, i dun understand a single thing
i merely wan back moi tax refund
y make life so difficult for mi?

having little bubbles on moi hand
firx it was onli on the third finger
den dunno since when it started to spread
now almost both moi hands are filled with those little bubbles
mum's afraid it's hand foot mouth disease
i had totally no clue to wad it is
it itches a little n is spreading more n more

went to ikea wid daddy mummy jux now to find a new sofa set
but to no avail
saw a bedroom display that i love it loads
mum keep telling mi how to use n wad to do
as if im shopping for moi house
haas
how i wish
saw young couples strolling hands in hands
having headaches on which furniture best suits their new house
envy
if onli... ...

as one gets older, one tends to start thinking for the future
i used to have a dream
a dream that i couldnt fulfil it alone
mickey saes believe n ur dream will come true
so should i continue to believe?

i looked up at moi wardrobe
y are there stil so many pressies??
i've been back for 3wks alrdy!!

its alrdy feb, time to shop for moi evening gown
D&D in early march
this time, i wan to be a princess
little princess =)

beginning to realise sumtink's missing in moi life; moi goals, moi dreams, the substance in life is missing. waking up everyday to wonder wads next. life's getting kinda meaningless. its not onli bored, its the motivation that is missing. i nid to find sumtink to keep mi going. even moi fav dragon ball is not keeping mi motivated. romance? long lost. i dunno wad i wan. in fact, im losing interest in every single thing. nutink seems to keep mi entertained. im losing the directions in life. am stuck at the crossroads, not knowing where to head next. somebody lead mi, pls. i miss the days in the states.