things not going smoothly
obstacles owaes appear
y am i
owaes stuck in between

since sec 1
been making decisions
been crying over
y mi again

can dere be once
let mi live life
as it is

can dere be once
i dun haf to start thinking
wad should i do

moi life
full of challenges
does tat make mi
a stronger n better person

or make mi
a more quiet n reserved

can i
jux sit back
n not bother abt anything

i dun wan to work
i dun wan to travel from one end to another
thinking of how am i going to spend tat 4hrs in the airport

its holidays
moi last school holidays
can i jux quit
n enjoy moiself to the fullest

wad will ppl sae of mi
i din turn up for work
cux i was sick
ppl angry
cux it was last min

but how can u predict
u will be sick the next day

if now i sae
daddy gary
i wan to quit
i nid to think of a valid reason
y izzit such a last min decision

will be putting daddy gary
in a spot
he dotes on mi so much
as if im his daughter
how can i be so cruel
to do this to him

wanping
u gotta endure
3 more wks
it will be over

jia you

neber knew wad i wrote
will scare ppl like hell
haas

*to joan*

i read ur blog
was at a lost of words
think from his point of view
u will realise y he does this n that

he tie ppl
cux he cherish e person
he dun wan to lose tat special one
if u notice
his special one is owaes loved by many

e blood n j-ster
is not gone
dey went pub
for men's talk
like gals
we haf our gals' talk too
guys need privacy too
e bros n sistas
did not forget u

thank u for ur blessings
i wish u n kw well too
all da best
jia you

be a good gal
dun let ur tots run wild
if not
no sharkfin for u!!
=P

*to all those who r concerned*

im perfectly fine
sorry for e scare

jux tat moi digestive system
not bery good
tats y
i feel like vomiting
cux the food pcs r not digesting
ended up too full

imagine
u ate alot
much more den usual
stomach bloated
den u board a train
so crowded n shaky
wont u wan to vomit?

so guys
dun anyhow think

thanx for ur concern
lurve ya

feeling so restless everyday
everything i eat jux dun seems right
feel like vomiting all the time
if not i'll feel too full
even if its jux a bun for a meal

gosh
wads happening to mi
feeling so sick
so tired

went for project today
as usual
e man n woman is late
n very late

guess cux of last nite's bbq
had fun
played secret no
drank tat cup of chilli + volka + chips
yucks

so many things to do
proj discussion r owaes short n sweet
good
sumhow
i can c some progress
at least for sm
e whole report outline is done
great

e sad thing is
i realise
sch's starting soon
pretty fast eh

haven reali enjoy
n e holidays r ending
when sch starts
its going to end pretty soon too

den i'll be gone
wid moi present situation?
can i endure e long hrs?
n e 5mths w/o moi mama ard?
omg

lion com coming
everybody is busy
y am i not?

da-shu called e other day
surprise
he asked y i not competing
told mi sp seems not enuff ppl
alright
i din noe
i wasnt told
i promised him
i'll help out if deres a need
but bb disagreed

darling
oh pls
dun tie mi so tight
dun

so wad r moi plans?
going to be like e other time
inform him onli when everything is done?
no way
he's going to kill mi

nvm
shall take a step at a time

tmr going out
fretting over wad to wear
moi wardrobe looks so plain
y is mama owaes complaining too many?

nah
i wan to buy t-shirts!!
think ps got one shop
selling tops pretty nice
shall drop by tmr

world cup fever
no scv at home
missed so many matches

ytd got portugal
today got czech republic
tmr got brazil
moi favs
gonna miss it
arghhh

im feeling so sick
help

he called
sounding so bored
so restless for the whole dae

she duno wad to sae
tried hard to start a topic
said things she shdnt sae

at least
she got it cleared
e msg counts

actuali she knew
when he waited for her last nite
dun she

guess she's jux trying
to initiate a conversation
not good to keep quiet over the fone

she's never on fone
cux she's owaes so quiet
better at expressing in words?

e problem wid internet
ppl communicate over e screen
while keeping their mouths shut

ending up
keeping more quiet
each day passes

or izzit
becux dey knew each other
long enuff

thorough
till dey noe wads going on
even w/o speaking their minds

gosh
is tat a good sign?

finali went back wlcs ytd
had a hard time
persuading bb to let mi go

he sent mi a msg
until he gotta noe y i was so sneaky
forget abt e msg
he said

cz enlightened mi
time for mi to make moi own decision
so i went ahead

i tot dat will be e last time
we eva be so close
i held him tite
heart hurting inside

it hurts mi more
when e pfm was messed up
moi worse eva pfm
was such a utter disappointment

i joined sp
wid onli one goal
i wan to learn moi dragon ball well
cux one day
i wan to go back wlcs
n lead the dragon
wid ppl impressed

but y mux dere owaes be crop ups
neber once
since sp
in wlcs
i did well
never

why
in sp
i can lead em well

why
in sp
dey understand
wad i wan to do next

communication?
probably
been ages
im in wlcs
never lead e big ones b4
first time eva

tears nearly drop
den i remembered
mum once said
how can u accomplish big things
when u cant overcome a small task

e words
since young
engraved deeply in heart
those words
made mi stronger
after each fall

i shall learn
from every mistake

no matter how
ppl tease
no matter how
ppl laugh

i wil prove moiself
one day
i will

its e 9th today
a significant date
for mi for him

happy anniversary

bb
ilu

stupid com
wanna do serious work
jam
i nid to submit work online
by this wk neh
pls pls
be good k

9am
so early
daddy gary called
ask mi go work at 1pm
ch on mc
aiyo

was half aslp
onli rbr going c bb later
canot help

bb sick le
fever
again
acc him go c doctor

i like e doctor
joke joke de
not like mine
so serious

tmr wlcs chu dragon
should i go
bb sure not happy de
but i feel like going

time to go back?
been years since im in uniform
joined sp
dey tot i peng liao

in fact
moi heart
never left wlcs
owaes tel moiself
i stil belong dere
no matter how close am i
wid others

dats moi home
where i grew up
though i din learn much
from dere

daddy mummy
all wished to c mi back
i sae i free
dey sae go chu la

take dragon ball
teach eric how to run
haas

mi? teacher?
lols

went weiyi ann ytd
disappointment
waited so long
program onli started at 2145

e so-called lion king
so funnie
pris keep looking at the drummer's belly
naughty gal

e so-called dragon king
not bad
stil not as good as last yr com
i was dere
last yr was so much better

ns jump zhuang
ben n xiong
e onli team in ns?
swing up e first pole
hmm
tat time lt oso did
fast learner
i like e swing
cool
but dey din eat e greens
play back video
oso dun haf
???

weiyi dragon
one of moi fav
standard drop
yihao's lollipop
not as powerful
haiz
but i like his shua zhu
power

imagine one day
i can be like him
da-shu sure jaw drop
haas

miss moi lollipop
dragon stop
nainai oso stop

now can onli c ppl pfm
i wan moi lollipop!!

when can i touch e dragon again?
moi little wish
since 10years ago
will it be ever be fulfilled?

i once had a feeling
at the age of 19
everything i wanted
i get it
onli one wish
not fulfilled
n i left the world

im 19
this year

last nite she cried
herself to slp
e feeling she hated
should she voice out

she noes deres nutink on
jux cant help feeling uneasy

e onli nite
no nightmares
e onli nite
she slept well n sound

she's feeling insecured
she needs some assurance

she flipped thru e photos
stuck at e same one again
everytime
tears wet her eyes

memories flashback
she misses him more
e one she used to noe
e one she used to cuddle in

she asked a question
he wouldnt answer
she hopes to hear him sae
"yes"

he giggles
but he jux wouldnt sae

surrounded by gals
she dun wan to be an option
she wans to be e priority
like she used to be

fate or faith?

feeling so restless
discounts everywhere
bought a necklace cum belt today

was supposed to do project
cw suggested orchard library
end up nvr come
mavis sick
left piriya, zq n mi

can onli discuss gbe
3more to come along
gotta buck up

sotong late for work again
everytime go back lala land
after moi morning col
*shake head*

wanted to gif him second col
scared he stil upset abt ytd
haix

so many things
i suggested
he shook his head

darling
haf u becum half indian?
y keep shaking ur head
aiyo

nvm
one day
u will nod ur head

sumtimes
crazy ppl
n crazy ideas
takes time for ppl
to accept
n to go along

chatted wid grandson ytd
did some catch up
haben been going training
been missing

he got gf le!!
heehee
finali
one down

many to go
so many grandsons
dun rbr how many
haas

kinda miss em
e last time i saw em
was like during
nite safari
wid e super huge animals

nono
was at chu shi
gosh
been so long
dragon stop
nainai oso stop
haix

nafa coming
july 21st
been 3yrs since i last run 2.4
6rounds
wid moi fats
can i stil retain
moi gold medal
hope so

gotta start training
no running shoes
gotta get one
money
where
haix

work ytd
wid auntie
surprisingly can get along wid her
e firx time since dec
lols
if onli we can remain this way
how great
she's not tat scary afterall

submitted moi schedule
for e last mth of work
hmm
so fast

met jing n kel ytd
n tat blur sotong
he got pestered by tat lil gal again
haas
wonders tat lil gal got bomb him today anot

working later
hmm
gotta go home moiself
sotong not going to sit wif mi in e train
he today half day onli
cant expect him to wait until 10

how great if can go home wid him
everytime i finish work
hee

gosh
im falling in
again
his daddy saw mi
caught mi in surprise
dunno how to react
was trying to hide away
stil he spotted mi

den saw his didi
den daddy told mummy
mummy ask where am i
omg
all in one day

den went to meet ys
he sang e song again
n e last sentence he look at mi
n sang it to mi
tao yan
make ppl blush
humph

honestly
picture still as blur
a little sweet a little confusing
haven been sleeping well

nightmares
scared
but he was neber told
hurr

silly gal
dun dare to ask for much
cherish
e onli word in her mind n heart

thinking of organising bbq
before i leave
not sure if he will still be dere
when i come back

call it a last dinner
wadsoeva
though i dun wish to
let it be sweet
memories behold

yet dunno if he will be in singapore
so many ctries he's going to
pls be back in time
let mi c u
before i dun get to

he asked mi to go jb wid him
n his mummy
heehee
but both gotta work
den he say after his attachment
yippee
looking forward

wish mi well

signing off*

oh no.
im sick. real sick.
finali went to the doctor ytd.
indigestion.

went back again today.
medication stronger.
so many things canot eat.

the beans series.
cauliflower. brocolli.
moi fav milk.
fried food.
dumplings.

gosh. its the rice dumpling festival.
but i reali learnt the lesson.

was such a torture after the dumpling.
had a hard time getting to sleep.
couldnt even go school today.
when today is such an impt day.

test papers.
IAF tutorial.
results for sm test.
let's pray i dun need to go for retest.
=_=

went yvonne's bday tat day
was shocked when i reached
its not a house unit
its at coffeeshop

so many ppl
like wedding dinner
esp when she n bf take photos

envy em
how i wish i can behave like em
it used to be
haix

had a nice time wid em
moi sec sch mates
some bery long neber c liao
yihn shin stil e same
e joker of e day
e big eater
haha

den went kbox
his singing improved
keep it up
mine is going downhill
where's moi shifu??
*shake head*

songs tat he sang
belongs to their memories
he denied
but i noe

y wud one be so pissed off
if u dun haf feelings??

jing told mi sth
dunno wad to sae
keep saying "i dunno"
she said
"in fact, dere's onli two words in ur heart
-waiting"

am i??

when friends ask
haf a bf?
she replied no
n dey all knew

e somebody once so impt
still lives in her heart

ytd went longtian's anni
saw e lilies on the zhuang
gosh
moi favourites
so nice

e next thing dat came into moi mind
i wan e lilies on moi wedding
e decorations
oops

reminds mi of the 9lilies
e 090909
e date. e promise.
haas

is she still waiting??

she onli noes
she tried to put it down
but somehow
she never had e courage to accept new

somehow her hands can onli slipped into tat somebody's
somehow she's onli able to find a sense of security in him
nvm if deres part 2 to his stories
e trust never once faded
never

wad abt the feelings?
its rekindling
like e candle n its flame

wad does tat mean??

omg!! moi soul has left mi!!
i was actuali thinking of wad to pack into moi luggage last nite.
this morning, im alrdy thinking
of how i wud look like when i come back.
tats like dunno how many mths later de things wor.
gosh.

actuali quite fast la.
now is alrdy end of may.
will be end of aug soon.

im having a test later!
test!! 15%!!
wad am i doing here?!!

aiyoyo..

actuali i do wonder.
how wud things be like when im not ard.
n when i come back.
wud things still be e same for mi??

the story. the people. e place.
e smell. e taste. e sounds.
would everything still be familiar??
would moi lollipop still be dere for mi??
or replaced??

would granny be forgotten??
would bb be forgotten??

stop!!!
i need to go back to moi books.
or shd i sae notes.
aiyo. its memorizing work again.
brain teaser.

jiayou jiayou jiayou!!

i cant wait to get moi pay.
i wan to get moi dream camera.
i wan to go shopping.
its gss!!
sales!!

not time for tests.
oh no. i need some motivation.
motivation!!!

i still wan moi 'a's at the end of the day.

hmm. guess im feeling better le.
at least not so xin ku le.
hopefulli not on-off.
been suffering for the past few wks le.
yesh! i can survive w/o e doctor!!
whahaha!!

but appetite still not bery good.
nvm. slowly will recover de.
oh no. im craving for thai food.
the sourness and spicy-ness.
awww.

went movies today.
over the hedge.
nice cartoon.
all abt food.
nono. tok abt family ties too.
dey r jux cute.
i wan e softtoys!!
oops.
guess im still a child at heart.
haas.

tat day cw asked.
when r we gg out?
haven get u ur present.
haas.
tot dey forget le.
hmm. put some money into an ang bao.
dat will be perfect.
honestly.
i reali dunno wad to buy.
heels maybe.
mine is wearing out.

dennis asked mi abt my present too.
dey wanted to get mi e giordano jeans.
tot i like it alot.
in actual fact. not reali.
tats y im hesitating.

sunday ish nadia's wedding.
yeah. can wear pretty clothes le.
but i need pretty shoes to go along.
hmm.

been living simply.
din quite bother abt wads going on.
jux simple simple de.
no happy or unhappy.

e good thing is.
no quarrels. no fighting.
dunno how long will this last.

onli noe to cherish.
n not to take it for granted.
opportunity dun come knocking twice.
dun let history repeat itself.

even if its jux a dream.
i wan to sae.
thankew.

gosh. im feeling so sick.
stomach upset.
been a couple of wks.
or had it been a month?

cant eat well. cant slp well.
no appetite.
forced moiself to eat.
eat liao feel like vomiting.
wth.

kneecap pain again.
dunno wth ish happening to mi.

mama went to c em training.
come back tel mi so many things abt USA.
samantha went b4.
sae bery cold.
need to bring medication.
need to wear thick clothings.
cannot bring too much money.
blah blah blah.

mummy. im not feeling well.
pls leave mi alone.
stop sending waves to moi ears.

im giddy. low blood pressure?
dunno.
im jux. not feeling well.

misunderstanding cleared!!
yippee yuppie!!
heehee..

hmm. so now i noe.
sumtimes its good to clear the air.
n assumptions r reali not good.
cux its not owaes correct!
rather, it will lead to misunderstanding.
den unhappiness.
haas.

oh. n to moi dear wq.
pls do not start introducing guys to mi.
i dun need em.
neither do i wan any.
i alrdy haf one living in moi heart.

even not, i stil haf e love n warmth from moi family n friends.
so pls, pls. do not start ur matchmaking.
thankew bery much.

oh. n to wb.
haha. thanx alot for ur angbao.
its one of the best present i got.
its owaes better to gif mi money
den to buy mi things tat i reali haf no idea wad to do wid it.

moi room is in such a mess now.
all the presents in e big big plastic bag.
i din even haf time.
no. i shd say i dun even haf any more space to keep em.

i still think money is more practical.
im not money-minded.
bleah.

kk. gotta go back to moi books.
got a test later.
n i had a bad dream.
dreamt of moi p6 chinese teacher.
he was so agitated.
cux i din do well for the test.
wonder how he is now.
so long neber c him.
oh yes. i dunno y.
seems like chinese teachers dote on mi alot.
n dey do haf high expectations on mi.
not onli in chinese.

so i better do well.
its alrdy the last yr in poly.
probably moi last yr of education.
u better gif ur best, wanping.
jiayou!!

tired.
reali tired.
tmr will be wk 6 of school.
one more wk n it will be holidays.
endure.

one more month.
going to quit moi job.
endure.

jux want to slack ard doing nutink.
get somebody to dote on mi.
let mi feel e sweetness in love again.

love. wad is that?
a candy or bittergourd?
a chilli padi or lemon lime?
tasted all before.
taste bud numbed.
how should it taste like?

grandpa in hospital.
been a week.
mum sae condition worsen.
go c him before u dun get to c him again.
e same words when grandma lied in hospital e other time.
hates to c em in agony.
pains moi heart.
cant cry in front of em.
gotta be strong.
grandpa, u gotta be strong.
grandma pulled over. u can do it too.
jia you!

missing somebody
one day neber contact
like end of the world

dey finali met up
n dey went out
he got jealous when she msg guys
reali jealous

did the story continue?
e picture remains blur
her heart hurts
she dun like to assume
she needs some confirmation

deep within she knew
he misses somebody
tat gal who made him changed alot

she had a dream
this time she dreamt of e goddess of mercy
e next thing tat came into her mind
tells her she needs to make a clear cut
her heart hurts

she knew tat long ago
but she hadnt been able to do so
she cudnt bear to
but she had to

tat morning
she wanted to tel him e three words
no matter how she phrased it
doesnt seems right
she ended up greeting him good morning
stupid gal

she knew one day
dey probably wud become strangers
she jux wanted to cherish
the remaining time wid him

she neber expected she wud haf this chance
is the heaven testing em?
onli heaven knows

when will be their next meeting?
next wk? next month?
or next yr?
haix.

been admiring pretty gals lately
telling all moi friends who n who getting more attractive
until dey worried im going the crooked path
told mi to get a bf
haas

yesh
n i announced i wan to get a bf
a 2mth bf
jux b4 i leave for disney
cux i noe ppl wont wait for mi anyway
its jux to make sure im still straight

in fact i am straight
i think im falling in love wid somebody
somebody whom i shdnt haf
or probably he's jux a model
somebody i hope to haf
he's a good guy
considerate n thoughtful
haas

its so hard when i wan to get one
when i dun wan dere r so many in the waiting list
like taxis
owaes nowhere in sight when i need one

went jp wid aisyah today
seems like e firx time we go shopping alone
saw a nice pair of shoes
selling onli at 29.90
but dun haf moi size
other outlets oso dun haf
haiz
saw adidas pair, $109
whow
where do i get e money?

saw a jumper. nice.
think dey going to get it for mi.
moi belated bdae present.
heehee.

dun quite like e mp4 i got for bdae.
quite a hassle if i bring overseas.
tot of selling it away n get sumtink i wan instead.
but it doesnt seems right.
haix.

see. like i said.
dun assume wad im thinking.
u'll neber get it right.
i hate ppl who make assumptions.
cant u jux ask for some confirmation?
haix.

its not easy to make a clear stand
when a once couple becomes friends
its a blessing tat dey r still in contact
tat dey can still confide in each other

when things go wrong
as they sometimes will
when the road u're trudging seems all uphill
and when u want to smile yet u have to sigh

when care is pressing u down a bit
rest if u must
but dun quit

for life is queer with its twist and turns
as everyone of us sometimes learns
and many a failure turned inside out
the silver tint of the cloud of doubt

and u never can tell how close
it may be near when it seems so far
so stick to the fight when u're hardest hit
its when things seem worst that u must not quit

haas. dunno wad to sae.
went chu shi on moi bdae.
felt kinda cheated cux i was not needed at all.
cud haf gone ubin wid moi family.
cud haf gone dating.
ended up whole day wid moi whole bunch of grandsons.
failed to turn up for bdae dinner wid moi poly mates.
failed to turn up for bdae supper wid moi frend.
felt guilty.
ppl wanted so much to celebrate wid mi.

was kinda forced to go kbox wid em.
cux i was e main.
dey planned it secretly.
told mi onli on tat day itself.
everybody was so tired after a whole day of rain n shine.
dey din let em off.
wth.

full of complaints. i hated cy for ruining moi dae.
for spoiling moi pre-scheduled programmes.
but den i think again.
dey din expect things to turn out this way either.
dey put in the effort to organize.
to gif mi a surprise.
i shd appreciate it.

yes i did.
jux tat i dun like e way he do things.
be positive.
tats wad i told moiself.

at least. i got quite a few surprise this yr.
ppl whom i seldom contact wish mi too.
moi sec schmates celebrated wid mi too.

though i break moi tradition.
every yr, since one yrs old.
dere will be a cake.
no cake this yr.
jux felt like sumtink was missing.
no cake is like not bdae.

but i got an imaginary one over e fone.
haas.
special. a touching one.
thanx alot.

quite a few presents i received.
not all yet.
moi fav grandson gave mi a special one.
to replace e lost one. its a cushion.
for mi to bring over to disney.
to cuddle mi to slp everynite.
in case i miss home too much.
so thoughtful of him.

got a mp4. haven examine how to use.
looks like a camera.
got a sports bra too.
haas. lolx.

n e wallet tat i've been using was from moi son.
he got mi a handmade card too.
nice. love it.

thanx everybody.

gosh!! im so tired!!
haven been sleeping for the past 23hrs plus!!
woke up at 530am ytd.
reach home onli at 5am today.
omg.
n im now at work.
later still got a whole list of programs.
dun let mi be under e sun.
i will faint!
i even doze off while standing.
n i nearly fall on moi back.
oh mine oh mine!!

oh. n zouk was so boring!!
e songs are so... erkk!!
luckily when we passed by another.
butter factory.
good.
at least it belongs to our generation.
n we went in free!!
haas.
cux it was like 3.45am?
n dey r closing in 15mins.
lolx!!

dun feel like going chu shi eh.
ms lollipop, can i dun meet u today?
got ppl specially take off wan to celebrate wid mi wor!!
haas.
yesh yesh. its a him. HIM!!
hopefully he will appear somewhere later.
lalala.

happy birthday to mi!! ^_^

so many dates out of the blue.
mothers' day dinner.
bbq.
clubbing.
work.
chu shi.
bdae dinner.
supper.
gosh.
going to be so drained out.
pocket going to break a big hole.
panda eyes popping out.
oh. den dere's e sch projects n CAs coming up too.
n the meet-ups next wk.
omg.
tired.
but thanx alot friends.
i feel so honoured to be so welcomed by all of u.
but..
i haf a little wish.
can u guys pls spread out ur dates e next time??
dun cramp all ur gatherings wid mi on the same day..
i dun like to be walking zombie.
cux i'll scare e hell out of u!!
haas.
thanx alot.
love u guys.

her fav grandson pass her a present today.
its big n nicely wrapped.
was curious.
but was told to open onli on the actual day.
anyway. thnx alot.

skip training today.
went sinseh.
ankle sprain.
again.
bandaged.
feel like handicapped.
so inflexible moving ard.
hurt her waist too.
e doctor smiled n said.
"u r such an easily hurt little gal"
haas.
mr doctor, im turning 19.
aint a little gal anymore.

not planning for celebrations.
mum asked her to go pulau ubin wid em.
family outing.
she said got chu shi.
her mum was like, "huh? its ur bdae leh.."
lolx. not in the mood for it anyway.
so hope e calendar will jux skip tat day, tat date.

more presents coming in.
cheer up.

everything's jux not right.
flip thru e photos.
feelings came back again.
tot it alrdy faded?

haven been able to put it down. haf i?
was jux wondering.
if one day. i go up to him n sae.
"bb, can we go back to the times we used to be?"
wad will be his reply?
think too much le ba.

went movies ytd.
mi3. nice. thrilling.
dunno y.
tot of him.
so hope so much e one sitting beside mi ish him.
haix.

dunno. everything's jux not getting right.
supposed to go chu shi.
ppl help mi take moi shoe.
yet i stil m.i.a.
im jux so slack. so restless.
so moodless.

been so easily irritated nowadays.
scolding everybody for nutink.
keeping a distance to everyone.

help!! im not moiself!!
y ish this happening to mi!!
arghhhhh!!!

she keep dreaming of him. even dreamt of him going disney wid her.
haas. she missed him too much??
probably.
she got so excited when she receives his msg.
even though it was onli a forward msg.
at least he still remember her existence.
it was like months ago.
when dey firx broke off.
n when she received a forward msg from him for the firx time.
it was e same feeling.

days ago. she told her grandsons.
she need a break. badly.
she's too tired she feel like giving up everything.
mentally + physically.
she's jux tired.
disappointed too.
to noe she's seems to be e onli one who loves dragon alot.
somehow. she feels she's not needed.
she feels kinda extra.
haiz.

had her firx cooking lesson today.
teriyaki chicken.
daddy wans her to master her cooking before she leaves for disney.
mummy bought her e ingredients while she was asleep.
see the way she put in the chicken wings.
her mum laughs.
say she's like qian jin da xiao jie.
haha.
but e dish was nice.
for the firx time.
she cooked sumtink for her mum. =)

shall cook a proper meal on mothers' day.

oh.. im getting so sick n tired of the trainings.. ppl r getting lesser.. todae not even half the numbers.. the working ones n the fallen sick ones r enuff to keep the dragon not moving.. gosh..
im jux so bored at the training today.. dey went kbox ytd.. none of em called mi along.. to think i owaes organise gatherings for em.. forget it.. im becoming more n more invisible.. one day, i will jux go missing.. moi leg is giving troubles.. i merely take a few steps back n it starts to hurt.. yesh.. n dere i start to limp again.. wth.. gotta go back for checkup one of these days..

we were jux planning for celebration this afternoon.. cux cw's bdae ish jux one day behind mine.. tot of celebrating it tgt.. was said to fix it on sat.. moi darling aisyah will be coming too.. yippee.. den again.. gotta c if kevin (cw's bf) can take off to keep her poor little darling accompany anot.. hopefully he can.. den everything will be smoothly carried out as planned..

we even tot of baking our own bdae cake.. she wans strawberry.. i wanted chocolate.. so tat will make it half of each flavour.. lolx..

cy jux reminded mi vesak day gotta chu shi.. big event.. got dragon, lion n big flag.. heard ish laoda's mum sintua.. sumore its in e morning.. wth.. am i reali going to celebrate moi dae wid e buddhas n lollipop?? da-shu say after chu shi den go happening.. haiz.. seems like i cant go missing huh?? quick.. somebody date mi on moi dae!!

was on moi way home jux now.. n saw an old auntie's wake.. one of a kind.. bery neat n tidy.. still got buddha at the side de.. bery nicely done.. den it reminded mi of the dream..

quite some time ago, i dreamt moi mum left us to another world.. she was lying in the coffin.. i was so scared when i woke up.. moi heart beat so fast.. until i saw moi mum safe n sound.. i actuali forgotten abt it le.. den e wake reminded mi again..

jux now watch da chang jin.. lady han oso die.. oh mine.. n i went sobbing in e toilet when i think of the dream i had.. oh pls.. pls do not let tat dream of mine come true.. pls dun..

where's moi darling.. can u lend mi a hug.. a real tite hug.. tel mi e dream is not going to come true.. tel mi mummy is going to live to ripe old age.. tel mi her failing health is not a signal.. tel mi mummy is going to be fine..

darling.. where r u??

i dun haf one.. ='(

im jux a nobody.. a lonely soul.. an empty shell..

when a triangle becomes parallel lines..

i give moi blessings..

cux parallel lines never meet..

thanx for the memories..

ilu.

jh asked how am i going to spend moi bdae.. i said dunno.. probably spending e nite wid moi sisters.. yearly routine.. haas.. e question keeps mi wondering.. im owaes e one organizing gatherings n surprises.. when will it be moi turn to wait for anybody's surprises?? i dun think dere will ever be ba.. im jux so envious of all those who r so fortunate..

went jb ytd wid zq dey all.. finali.. we haf been saying it for like half a yr.. haas..
it was real crowded.. how i wished e m'sia govt will improve e ventilation at the custom.. anyway.. i managed to survive.. whew!! e queue was like almost an hour.. cant imagine how did i survive thru e lack of fresh air.. n moi height ish like.. u noe..

so we went city square.. yepz.. our main purpose was shopping.. but we were hungry after tat long n tedious waiting at the custom.. so we went for lunch at secret recipe.. gosh.. i onli ate tat at singapore on thursday.. dere am i eating at the same restaurant again on sunday.. wth..

luckily dere was much more variety.. n e food did taste nice.. up to the standard.. but e service sucks.. e time we waited to be served was so much more den e time we spent on eating.. it was like double! omg.. n we waited so long for tat 3ringgit change!! well.. their service was bad.. we jux dun wan to give em tips!~ lalala...

alright.. tat shopping mall ish reali mega.. i mux say.. we actuali lost each other in e mall.. so it was like mi, zq n cw spent like abt one hr searching for e other 3.. den to realise dey actuali went back to the converse shop.. -_-!!

i guess grace was the one wid the fruitiest labour.. she bought a bag, a shirt, a sweater n a pair of clogs.. like shopping for new yr.. lolx.. hmm.. i onli bought a top.. wanted to get tat pair of canvas.. pretty nice.. n its onli abt sgd25!! but its white.. dun quite match moi clothings.. nvm.. shall look again.. e one in moi friendster is nice.. lets hope i can get sumtink similar.. ch sae he will get mi a pair for present.. cuz im owaes wearing tat old canvas.. n its going to be worn out pretty soon.. haas..

oh.. n i saw so many shawls!! saw e one i like.. n e specs!! its purple n black.. perfect!! exactly the colour im looking for.. but i saw it when e other 3 went missing.. gotta find em.. in the end.. i neber buy.. wad a waste.. yepz.. n e bikinis too!! selling at sgd35!! gosh.. i wan to go back dere again!! how i wished i had brought enuff money.. den i wud haf gotten all the bargains.. awww..

nvm.. i will be going kl in june.. hee.. was jux discussing wid mummy.. she owaes wanted to take the train.. yepz.. so we will be going via train.. im jux so excited.. shopping!! n yesh yesh.. e whole family will be going together.. i jux miss family outing.. been so long we go out together cux im owaes e missing one.. shall not work too much.. i need a break before moi disney attachment too..

im jux thinking.. i wan a fully packed bdae.. kbox till 7pm.. den go dinner.. after dinner go clubbing.. whahaha.. dunno can tahan anot.. gotta work in the morning wor.. 530am mux wake up liao.. *faint*

hopefully moi poly khakis can make it on tat day ba.. den moi plan can be fulfilled le.. if not, i gotta guai guai go chu chi n celebrate wid the buddhas le.. it jux so happens tat vesak day ish moi lunar bdae.. lolx..

counting down to moi bdae.. 10 more days to go.. 6_^