supposed to be sleeping alrdy, gotta wake up early tmr. haix.

firx day work wasnt good at all. not a bit. was told to report work at 8.50am, i was early. had brief orientation abt the key players in the company. REALLY BRIEF. dun ask mi who is who, i dun remember at all. anyway, after tat, HR went on to intro mi n another guy to the staff. den i was left to karen, moi officer in charge. she's the tour officer. sumtink lidat. alright, so i was assigned to uncle billy. he was supposed to guide mi along. everybody saes he's the most stable, best person to learn from. n he dun teach jux anybody. so, i tot i was lucky to be under good guidance. but, oh well, he dun seems tat willing to teach mi anything at all. he din show mi the very basic -- answering phone enquiries. alright, he did show mi some stuff. but mostly becux i asked den he answer. yeah, Q&A session. den it was lunch time. went wid xinyi n edwin. i dunno them. in fact, i noe nobody. onli moi jiejie n to moi surprise, moi jiefu oso in hongthai. haas. but dey work backstage. im at front counter. sumore, our family ties is to be kept confidential to minimise office politics. after lunch, went back to office stuck wid uncle billy again. he can talk until i nearly fall asleep lor. sigh. went off to ladies to wash up. cannot sleep!!

till 3pm, moi turn to be hall manager, oso time for uncle billy to knock off cux he gotta tour lead at night. the duty of a hall manager is merely to greet any walk-in customer n bring them to the relevant counter. supposed to be 3-4 onli. but, when i get casey to take over, (it was scheduled), she had to do filing. so, i was asked to help take over her till she's done. n tat made mi walk up n down the office for another hour. moi ankle was so hurt tat moi tears nearly dropped. jux went sinseh the day before. n its a lil' swollen which is kinda unusual for mi. cux even if i sprain moi ankle, it wont swell.

i was so bored, felt so out of place. im inexperienced tats y im here to learn. yet, i was left alone wid no guidance. luckily, at the last hour, weisian was assigned to guide mi along. she was so much better. at least, she showed mi stuff wid sequence. not like uncle billy, mess. so overall, i did learn sumtink today. though, it was reali minimum for 8hours.

i was thinking, am i reali into this job? am i reali going to make this moi career? moi dream is to travel ard the world, but is bringing tour any part in moi dream? i can easily find another 5day job outside, save the money n travel. this job is taking away moi freedom, totally. taking away moi life. on public holidays, im not allowed to take leave. not on festives too. 7days a week, i'll be scheduled 5 1/2days. but moi off day is not fixed. most prob haf to work on sundays. sundays, when dear dear had off. were talking abt going zoo, going sentosa over dinner jux now, dey can jolly well fix which sunday n go ahead. but not mi. haix.

im feeling reali stressed out. haf to hit sales quota everyday. i dunno the quota, but sales is a must for every working day. i hate sales. lest to sae, hit quota. the last thing i ever wan to do is to hit sales quota. I HATE IT!!!

should i stay on? or should i, like wad ppl are telling mi, see how the next few days go den decide? wad should i do??? y am i stuck in this kind of situation again? decisions, decisions, decisions!! forever making mi to make decisions!! decisions tat i have to think thru carefully or regret for life. why mi again?!!