tat day, yk msg mi VERY EARLY in the morning.. 5plus in the morning. its a surprise i actualli heard moi fone ring. anyway, yepz, so msg wid him lor. surprise? haas. dunno y i bother to reply him oso. told moiself not to let him mess up moi life again. we tok abt lots of stuff. tok abt things we never said before. tat dumbo left one week to graduation, quit school le. haix. dunno wad to sae him. it wasnt easy for him to come so far, though he hadnt been doing well. but at least can fare bah. thinking back, it seems like i've been silently giving him support all these years. haas.
i wont deny tat i might still haf some feelings. but reali impossible le. i might still care but~ as a friend bah. purely friends. wont call him moi "ex", he's not moi present either. somebody special bah. somebody i truely loved.
as for the present one, wont call him moi "bf" either. dunno y, jux couldnt. to be honest, no special feelings. jux purely, hao gan. in fact, sometimes i feel so lost. dunno whether wad im doing is right anot. or izzit purely to numb moiself? im being unfair to him. but dun wan to lose him either. becux he reali dotes on mi alot? haix. another r/s wid hell lots of obstacles. headache. even more headache when im not even clear of moiself. arghhh!!!!!!
tat day go D&D, moi khakis heard got ppl come fetch mi kpo le la. den when i sae he's so much older den our age, penny ask whether im suffering from wad setbacks. haas. see, i guess tat's prob y im keeping moi mouth shut bah. jux couldnt bring moiself to tell ppl, "hey look, im attached. tat who n who is moi bf." i jux couldnt. even couldnt upload our photos to friendster. canot open, can onli underground. sigh.
noe wad, i noe ppl moi age sure sae the same thing. "wp, u can find a better one." oh well, tats wad penny been telling mi. tats wad moi sisters been telling mi.
toking abt them, supposed to meet them today. but i woke up late. den dun feel like going out le. dunno la, dun reali like to go jalan wid them oso. everytime see those girl girl stuff. den i owaes wait outside the shop. very sianz can. noe them 7yrs le. sae is sisters. but dunno y, not close wid them. yeah, moi sisters. but dey dunno everything abt mi. nopex. weird? haas.
alright, gotta go. other day den upload moi D&D pics. btw, i reali look like princess tat day can. simply love moi dressing tat day. ;P