as days pass. her bdae getting nearer.
friends r asking, "wad do u wan for a present?"
she ponders.
e things she needs r real expensive.
she noes dey cant possibly afford.

she wanted a digi cam since yrs ago.
now she needs a thumbdrive to store her doc too.
she wish she had another pair of shoes to interchange.
she wans a new hp.
a laptop. light n wireless.
wad she needs if she goes disney.

today. she was told. 90% of all r going.
onli a gal or 2 r tot not suitable.
shd noe e results by tis weekend.
dun dare to put too much hope.
e higher e expectations. e higher e disappointment.

on the way home. she looked out into the forest.
dark. n felt lonely.
memories flash back.
her best fren asked her abt her ex.
n was caught surprised.
haas.

no contact. she knew tis was going to be.
she missed e times when dey cud joke abt their past.
dey seems so close den.
now so cold.
or maybe e weather is cold.
unstabilised emotions.

she told herself. leave him alone.
"u knew he needed a break"
catch up wid him when he does so ba.
like how it used to be.
for the time being. let it be.

once again. fallen.