the same route. the same surroundings. the same people.
different status. different feelings.
as time flies. things do change. environment change. people change.
no longer the same.
things tat needs to be said. couldnt be said.
things tat shdnt happen. happened.

granny. no longer herself.
soul gone. laughter gone. enthusiasm gone.
missing. one day. some day.

went huang shifu's mum wake today. simple but good service. noe almost all who attended. sp, nyp, rp, wc, wj. big family. one for all, all for one. owaes helping each other. wonders how long will she be with them. she has a home she couldnt return. yet she has a family she couldnt col it her own. everybody treated her like princess. respected her though loved to tease her. dey will be dere for her whenever she's feeling down. she loves them. she reali do. but she's breaking down. mentally.
dere r some things she jux couldnt sae it out. she's feeling terrible hiding it in her heart. its not like her. she's no longer the noisy little granny. things tat seem simple r getting complicated. y is she implicated? she reali need someone beside her. jux stand by her side. she dun get it. whenever her friends need companion. she will try her best to be dere for them. but when she needs someone... ... there's no one in sight. is it becux she has got too many friends tat she dunno who to turn to? too many things happened tat taught her not to trust a person too easily?

u can haf as many friends as u want. but one who can keep u accompany when u r down is enuff.