he msg n said he was sick n he needed her badly.. somehow a voice tels her tat she needs to col him.. nutink.. jux to be assured he's fine.. he was ill.. seriously ill.. much more serious den e other time.. tis time he had to take care of his own.. without her ard to help out.. dey chatted.. like old frens.. until he said he had all along treated her as his baobei laopo.. she stil plays an impt part in his life.. n neber been replaced.. can he be trusted?
she read jm's blog e other dae.. she said tat he onli wanted her(jm) to be his onli baobei.. she read so many of her entries to find similarity in wad he used to sae to her.. e trust has faded..
he probably plays an impt part in her life too.. she noes clearly he wil neber be replaced.. but she oso noes.. sumtink is missing.. she might yearn for the feeling.. but its neber gonna be e same again..

she dreamt of him.. dey met up as agreed.. for a date.. she wanted so much to hold his hand again.. but neber had e chance.. when she finali hold him.. he was holding a cigarette.. he noes she dun like ppl ard her to smoke.. she let go immediately.. wid disappointment.. attitude changed.. dey went home.. to her home.. slept in the same room.. different beds.. somehow dey hugged.. n almost kissed when he pushed her away.. saying he dun wan to mislead her..
wad is the dream trying to tel her?
frens tel her to put down n carry on wid life.. get a new bf n start anew.. she jux cudnt.. she can accept the fact.. she face reality.. but she jux cudnt let her hand slip into somebody else's.. she once said b4.. he wil be her one n onli hubby.. her last bf.. n she wil wait.. no matter how long.. den she set herself a deadline.. 090909.. e date dey set for rom..
3yrs from now.. wad wil happen? onli heaven noes..