tok to joan ytd
im sorry i made her cry
she dun understand e situation i am in
when i sae big prob it means big
i cant breathe a word out
of wad actuali happen
not at all
all i can sae is
a lifetime guilt n regret

finali manage to tok to hubby
for more den one msg
things din turn out well
he's disappointed wid moi actions

i can onli sae
though i dun dare to expect much
i did wan to cherish
for as long as i can
it wasnt like wad u think

i noe everything i sae now is useless
haix

he came back surely for a good reason, rite?

cux he stil haf feelings for u, isnt it?

he did care for u
if not y wud he bother to visit u when u were in hospital?
and felt sorry when he had no time for u?

haf u eva wonder perhaps its too much for him this time?
u owaes kept ur feelings to urslf
n all of a sudden u burst out everything
would u be able to take it if u were e one in his situation?

sometimes i wish he would spare a tot for mi
well, if he hadnt
he wouldnt even bother to tel u he has reached home

dats e difference btw a guy n gal
e guy dun understand e gal
neither do e gal understand e guy

n when dey keep everything to emself
deytot dey r helping to improve e r/s
in fact
dey r causing miscommunication

isnt tat e primary reason for ur disputes?
u said u trusted him
den y do u stil doubt him?

i trusted
but im a human
i haf feelings too
when he's close to gals
i get reali jealous
he gets jealous too when im wid guys!!

oh well
perhaps e two of u jux dun haf confidence in urslf
u do trust each other
its e other party tat u dun trust
voice out den
y keep ur feelings to urslf?

he's not e worm in ur stomach
he wouldnt noe how u feel when u dun tel him
u let him be
so he tot u r ok wid it
if u r not feeling good abt it
tel him!!
he haf e right to noe!!

since u two decided to be tgt
u guys shd try to compromise
be honest wid each other
keep each other informed of ur whereabouts
even if u r gg out wid e opposite gender
at least u did inform him/her
dun hide anything

tat time
it was becux u guys decided not to voice out anymore
u guys tot each other shd understand n noe how u feels
tats y it accumulated
until one day
he feel so tired
he needed a break
isnt it?

u dun wan history to repeat
den dun do e same thing
it was him who felt tired e other time
now ur turn
wad the hell r u two doing?

rmb wad his daddy said?
now u all canot quarrel like last time
mux peacefully tok

see la
bu ting lao ren yan chi kui zai yan qian

y u so chong dong?
now make urslf so miserable?
u enjoy this kind of feeling meh?
stupid u!!

finali decided to leave him alone
let him cool down
e words u said
r making him having second tots
u silly gal
this time u reali made a great mistake!!
u gotta wake up n learn!!

dun take things for granted
dun eva!!

ur fone will probably be real quiet for quite some time
he probably will not contact u for quite some time
u gotta eat ur desserts
u deserved it, gal

stop pestering him, alright?
u promised him u wont
use this time for ur revision ba
exams coming
its gg to be e last time u r taking exams in school
give off ur best shot, k?
u wanted grade 'a's
how would u be able to achieve if u dun buck up?

stop thinking abt wads gg to happen
leave him alone
he needs time to think
u said u dun wan to add on to his stress
yet u throw a big bomb at him
wth

u noe him
he's not gg to bother until all his things r done
he haf no time to entertain ur nonsense
n he dun wan to
haix

now i onli hope
he would keep mi accompany on the 26th
thereafter i would be flying le
5mths later
nobody noes wad wil happen
moi onli wish
is to hear him col mi baobei
hold moi hand n hug mi tight

haix.